Tw: suicidal thoughts and mentions of suicide
I know we're all going to die one day
I don't look forward to finding out what is behind the black velvet veil
I don't want to live without my sibling
I couldn't live without them
The thought of it makes me savor each moment with them
The want to live forever
Doesn't everyone?
They never want to grow old, but they do
All I want to do is sit in a grass filled field
I want to feel the warm sun of spring on my skin
I want to sit with my head on someone's chest, just enjoying their touch
But that day might never come
Savoring life is difficult when the days come and go so quickly
Why can't I just stay in this moment forever?
I want to stay young and have no worries
Sadly, life catches up to you
You stop playing with toys and Barbies and trucks
You start caring what others think and cover yourself with make-up and muscle to disguise how sad you feel
Thinking of it hurts my brain
How you could change so quickly and stop enjoying life
Wishing I could care less about what others think but it is not that easy
My face hurts from smiling a smile I don't mean
My head hurts from all the times I wished I could just end it all
But I stay for my sibling, I hate to see them sad
My leaving them would make them so very sad
If I did it, would they understand?
Understand that they were enough and I love them, even in death
I don't wanna die with them thinking it was because of them
Because it wasn't because of them, it's me
They makes me happy
I want to hold their hand and hug them
I miss them
Why can't I just touch their hand?
I would give everything to be with them and hug them and let them know I love them
But life isn't fair and I might never touch their hand
I hate that they can't touch my hand and know I love them
But words will do for now
YOU ARE READING
My Poems
Poetrythey are all free verse because I can't rhyme :D most of them I'm proud of though
