Buddies and Bullies-5sos

"Leaving."

Luke's POV

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What did I do? I actually left her. I felt like stabbing myself a thousand times. I wanted to hurt myself more than I hurt her, I deserved it. I felt so hallow without her, I was in a deep dark hole where nobody could understand but Cara and I decided to leave her.

I just want to know why I'm such a asshole all the time. Why I was so full of hate. I'm sick of myself, I left her heart broken without any of her background.

I couldn't even support her or do anything for her at all. I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to know that I hurt someone I love.

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I silently walk up to the doorstep and knock on the door. The door comes swinging out showing a girl with light wavy hair that swayed her shoulders. Her face turned giving me a small smile.

" Can I help you?" Her voice was so quiet I couldn't remark any words she was saying.

" Is Calum here?" She nods quickly and send me upstairs, I walk into his white wall room.

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"Luke?" He stands up from his desk chair. His hands clentch into a fist, I throw my hands up in defense and widen my eyes. I knew he wasn't going to be happy when I tell him, so I don't want him to beat me up on bad terms.

" What do you want Luke." He scoffs. I pull my hands into my pockets and shrug my shoulders.

" I've been thinking about Cara lately. And I think I hurt her." Calum's fist clentch together so tighly, it was as tightly as my skinney jeans.

" What do you mean you hurt her?" He calms down a little tense.His bushy eyebrows furr and I pull my black beanie back.

" Calum she didn't want me. She doesn't want me anymore. I just got so worked up for her I just fell." I look down in disapointment. My face fell quickly down.

" Yeah Of course she didn't want you after all you've done to her I'm surprised that she still is caught up with you. Do you realize how much she crys because of your shit that she to deal with." My eyes verge to tear, but I hold them back in. I realize what i've done to her. I think about it every night. Wishing I could trace back everything and that she'd never been alive. I wish that she wasn't such a catch for feelings and that I had to get caught in them.

" Calum I know what I did to her, I just...I j-just." I take deep breaths in and out.

" Do you Luke?!" He shouts for the whole town to hear. He hated me, for everything I do to Cara or did.

" I do. And I wake up everyday wishing that I didn't fall in love with her!" I scream. My face fell to the ground, I told someone that I love her. Calum's face was shocked mixed with anger, sadness and pure fury out to destroy me.

" Y-you love her?" He murmurs. I could already tell that he disaproves of me. I nod slightly. What was I even doing. I do love her, even if as much as it hurts ever to say it. I love Cara.

" Luke I think you should leave." I wait quietly then turn my heels to leave his entrance.

As I walk down I see the girl who I'm assuming is Calum's sister. She runs up to me and gives me a small note.

" I'm Mali by the way." She gives me a lovely smile. Was she trying to flirt with me? If she was she's all wrong about me. All wrong.

I take the blank note and put it back in her hand, her face pulled into a frown. As I open the door I quickly turn my body facing hers.

" I already love someone too much to ever love again."

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A/N- OH MY GOD IM SO HORRIBLE I HAVEN'T BEEN ACTIVE FOR LIKE 0101919191192992 YEARS. OMFG IM SO SORRY THIS CHAPTER WAS JUST A FILLER.

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