You're Not Alone\\ Jikook ff

Strong

"Okay so once you multiply these two equations together then you have to subtract that from this number and then you will get your answer." Jungkook smiled at me once he finished explaining how to solve these types of problems.

We were back at his house Jackson drove us and as before Kai sat in the passenger seat. I was expecting silence once again to come from the back seat but Jungkook actually contributed to the conversation. The two up front seemed just as happy.

Once we got inside the house I was welcomed by cigarette smoke once again. Jungkook and I went straight to his room and he lit the same candle I picked out last time.

Jungkook had such a peaceful smile on his face as he turned in his chair to face me.

"Thank you." The cute one across from me smiled.

"For?" I asked with a slight teasing smile on my face.

"Introducing me to your friends." Aww he is so cute!

"You don't have to thank me. They would of introduced themselves if I didn't do it at lunch today." I laughed as I spoke the absolute truth. Yes Hoseok is a huge gossip but he would of wanted to get to know an old friend of mine anyway.

"Hahaha.......so um you're doing really well."

"I'm only doing well because you're my tutor."

"I'm sure Namjoon hyung would be a better tutor though." Jungkook said as he lowered his head.

"If he had time to tutor me then I would of never of been reunited with My Kookie again." I spoke softly and my choice of words got him to look up at me. His eyes are sparkling just as they did when we were younger.

"Are you honestly happy to see me again?" That question not going to lie hurt me. I leaned out of my chair a bit so I was closer to him. I carefully moved his chair so he was facing me. I placed my hands on his legs as he didn't move a muscle.

I remember when we were young these legs made him go so fast. He was like a bullet and so full of smiles. I know he lost a lot when we were young but I just want to bring his smile back again.

"Jungkook honestly.....if that night never happened I can't see us ever being apart."

"Do you feel differently though?.... I mean I can't run with you anymore or..."

"Or nothing....I just wish I knew so I could of been with you. I cried for weeks thinking you were dead. I lost my best friend. That's the only things I wish I knew so I could of changed that... but I can't....I'm just happy you are in front of me." During my little monologue I ended up having Jungkook's beautiful face cupped in my hand. My palm grew hot from his blushing cheeks.

"C-can I a-ask you s-something?"

"Of course." I spoke as I pulled away my hand.

"Do you think anyone would want to date me like this?" Okay this question came out of nowhere. Who wants to date him? No I was going to ask him out!

"Why do you ask?"

"No reason it's just....I'm 19 now and the ones that do flirt with me just do it because they think I'm an easy target."

"Kookie listen you are beautiful inside and out anyone that you say yes to would be the luckiest girl or guy in the world."

"Guy."

"What?"

"Guy......I'm gay." Jungkook was blushing so hard his pink hair had competition. I couldn't help but smile. I'm glad that I have a slight bigger chance of him saying yes now. "I've changed a lot though since we were kids how do you know I'm still like what you remember?"

"Kookie you've only gotten more beautiful and adorably more cute. You've definitely gotten smarter and you couldn't pass up on tutoring me."

"You're just saying that."

"No. Jungkook honestly before you told me it was you I was so attracted to you I-"

"Was?" Oh god no he looks so hurt.

"No! Was is a bad word it's just.....I felt wrong for thinking that way."

"Why? Is it my chair?" Kookie crossed his arms and got a sad pout on his face. He was genuinely hurt I can tell but he still looked so cute.

"No. It's that my best friend who I thought was dead was alive this whole time. My best friend who has this huge wall around himself when before he used to be nothing but open. I felt wrong for crushing on someone that has experienced so much pain."

"Jimin you can't change what happened. I don't blame you. I don't blame anyone." I grabbed Jungkook's smaller hands. His palms have definitely been used for years. They weren't extremely rough but definitely weren't smooth and delicate like most people who haven't worked a day in their lives. "I was sad though. I didn't have my best friend nor his parents who I grew to love too."

"How could they not tell me? I mean it's one thing to say you got hurt but it's another to let your son think someone is dead!" I was upset I lowered my head on Jungkook's lap and just started to cry. I missed him. I missed him so much. He was my favorite person and he just disappeared from my life after his dad picked him up. All these years he was dead.

Jungkook being the Angel he is and used to be just let me cry on his lap as he ran his fingers through my hair. He did this a lot when we were kids too especially when I had a fight with my dad.

My dad wasn't a bad guy we just had very different ways of viewing things. We were complete opposites unlike Jungkook who was the same kind soul as his father. I always envied their relationship not to mention they looked just like each other. Both had a big front toothed bunny smile as well. Jungkook's was always the cutest smile though.

"Maybe they thought it would be easier for you to think we would still be friends if I wasn't dead instead of me moving away and never seeing me again." How could he say that so calmly. Our strong friendship one that could be put in competitions and won was only killed because of a lie my parents told. "Don't blame your parents okay. I know that's what you are thinking but please don't. Nothing good will come of it."

I raised my head off his lap to look him in his beautiful eyes. "How are you this strong? My parents killed you in my life. How can I not blame them?"

Jungkook smiled softly before he cupped my face with his hand. "I'm strong because of the friendship we had. I'm strong because I had to be I had no one else beside me anymore. Yes your parents lied but it was with good intentions. I can't blame them because hey Fate brought us back together. Didn't it?"

"Hey I thought I was the sappy and dramatic one in this relationship?" I laughed.

"Relationship? Ha who said I would date a straight ass like you?"

"Who said I was straight?" I smirked at him while I stood up to stretch. I looked down and Kookie looked so shocked and cute as his cheeks were once again ablaze. "By the way I'm sleeping over tonight."