You're Not Alone\\ Jikook ff

Easier

Jackson and Kai were mad annoying trying to get Jimin to spill who he liked. If it wasn't for my mother's disgusting moans outside of my closed door I would of kicked them out.

"So what do you like about him?" I decided to ask to tear the questions away from who since Jimin wasn't budging on who it was.

"Well he is smart to boot. Extremely cute and funny when he isn't trying to be. His smile is so infectious I can't help but smile in return." Okay I regret asking him why. I didn't realize my heart would hurt this much hearing him talk about another person. This would be much easier if I didn't agree to tutor him.

"Is he taller or shorter than you?"

"Why does that matter?" Jackson asked Kai.

"Because I'm just trying to think of every out gay guy I know and I'll be able to narrow them down if he tells me.

"Haha well." Jimin gave me a quick glance before he shifted his eyes to my legs. " I was always taller than him but height doesn't matter to me."

"Kai are you going to pass it or hog it?"

"Here." Kai handed me the bowl before he started talking about hair color of the boy he liked.

"Um."

"Guys just stop please. I really doubt Jimin wants to talk about this otherwise he would of said a name by now. Okay let's change topic."

"Jungkook it's okay really I don't mind."

"But I do. If you want to talk about your crush or whatever you can go to Jackson's room. I'm going to start getting ready for bed.

"What about?" Jackson motioned towards the door not wanting to say the words.

I didn't answer him and just took another hit before I watched the smoke escape through the window. Something I wish I could do right now....escape through a window.

A good hour passed by with me completely zoning them out. Jackson and Kai are used to it especially when we smoke together. They come to understand that I'd rather not talk.

It's strange how I first got into cannibus. Back then I've already moved in and out of so many homes. Well not homes just roofs over my head. I haven't had a true home since my father was alive.

He is who I usually think about when I get high. My father used to smoke as well sure he quit the harder stuff but weed helped him have the energy to do everything he needed to do for us. He told me a few years before he died that it was a plant with so many healing powers.

I don't smoke for him though I smoke to relax. I've hated how my life has been and having the green herb just makes everyday just a bit easier.

"Kook?" I turned away from the mirror to look at Kai and Jackson who were standing up.

"I think they are done now so we are going to head to bed." Jackson spoke before he gave Jimin a fist pump goodnight.

"Oh okay goodnight then....oh wait here is your bowl." I answered extending my arm for him to take his bowl. He reached over with a small smile and grabbed his bowl.

"Wait did you need help getting in the shower?"

"No it's okay....thanks though."

"Anytime night Kook night Jimin."

"Night." Jimin and I said in unison.

Once my door was closed again a small silence filled the room before Jimin decided to speak.

"So um why didn't you want me talking about the person I like?" Seriously I finally stopped thinking about it.

"I don't know.....it's non of our business. Kai is just nosey."

"How do you feel about me liking someone?" Jimin asked as he stood up walking to my candle collection.

"I don't care....it's your life." Jimin just hummed in return soon blowing out my sugar cookies candle. Then he reached over and grabbed my lighter that I was still holding onto. He then grabbed the candle that he chose the first day he came over...our candle and lit it.

Jimin placed the lighter down before he walked over to the end of the room and shut off the light only leaving the candles flame to fill the room.

"What are you doing?"

"Nothing." He answered plainly before he sat back down on my bed. "So do you like anyone?"

"No." I quickly answered. My hands gripped my wheels turning them towards the door.

"Where are you going?"

"To get ready for bed."

"Do you need help?"

"Do I look like someone that needs help? Jimin stop okay! I'm not someone that needs pity."

"No! You stop! I'm not pitying you!" Jimin yelled back standing up from my bed glaring at me.

"Yes you are! Ever since you found out it was me I'm like someone you have to protect again. News flash I haven't needed you the last 8+ years and I don't need you now!"

"Have you ever thought that I've missed you all these years?! This is not pity this is me trying to be in your life again!"

"Yeah well once I let you in how long will it be till you leave?!"

"What?" He asked confused. I don't care that we are yelling at this point. I think it would hurt a lot less if I was alone again.

"How long till you leave me?" I asked more calm before I opened my bedroom door and left. I wanted to let that question sink in. I wanted him to know my fears of letting him in. I didn't mean to yell but it happened anyway.

Once I got out of the shower and brushed my teeth I headed back to my room. Once I was inside Jimin walked right passed me not saying a word as he closed the door behind him.

I rolled to my desk and took out my own weed. I took some green off the stem before I put it in my silver grinder. I carefully turned it to make sure everything was done nicely. I grabbed my strawberry wrap putting the green carefully on it. Once my blunt was beautiful and round I didn't hesitate to grab my lighter and make it burn.

I continued to smoke even when I heard Jimin come in again.

"What happened?"

"What?" I asked him turning around in my chair soon after taking another hit.

"What happened exactly? I mean what happened when you left our house that night?"