You're Not Alone\\ Jikook ff

Ratchet Woman

Jamie found me outside after the final bell rang. Kai wasn't going home today since I told them I would be tutoring Jimin at the public library. After our conversation earlier we just went our separate ways when the bell rang.

I wasn't planning on ditching Jimin since well honestly it was nice spending time with him again. Sure he annoys me and manipulates me to get what he wants but it just reminded me of how he used to be.

Sadly though Jamie ruined all my plans with Jimin.

Jamie came over behind my chair making me jump when he kissed my cheek. "Were you waiting for me Baby?"

"No! And don't do that!" I scoffed as I wiped my cheek of his kiss.

"Awwww baby I'm hurt. So are you ready to go?"

"Jamie I told you...I have plans." I crossed my arms as I looked at him with no emotion.

"With me."

"Just leave me alone." Jamie bent over getting really close to my face.

"Listen here baby I'm getting really annoyed with this attitude of yours.  Now be the good boy you used to be and keep your mouth shut. Now come on."

"Where the Hell were you yesterday I kept calling and texting and got nothing! I waited by the fountain for you for over an hour!" Jimin yelled at me.

"Listen I'm sorry.....something came up."

"Whatever I'm sure whatever it was could of been rescheduled."

"I'm sorry........if......if you don't want me to tutor you anymore I understand." Hell I wouldn't want to be tutored by me either.

"No it's fine.....you are helping me out. I'm sorry I snapped. Listen want to eat lunch with me and my friends. They want to meet you anyway."

"W-wait what?! I thought for sure you would never want to see me again." I looked up at him. He turned to me and smirked. It wasn't a gross smirk like Jamie it was a playful teasing one.

"You can't get rid of your new best friend that easy." He finished before he wiggled his eyebrows.

"W-what b-best F-friend?"

"Yep! We were when we were kids whose to say we can't be ones once again." I don't know why but my stomach started to fill with butterflies as he said that. "Plus I need to keep a friend as cute as you who is adorable when they blush." He winked at me before he laughed.

My face was ablaze. I put my hands in front of my face and lowered my head his laughter filling my ears.

Guilt filled my soul though. He won't think of me that way when he learns about what happened yesterday.

I tried to ignore those thoughts as I went about my courses like normal. Of course getting the random texts messages from my ex step brothers.

Honestly my first day of college here I just wanted to be alone. I only wanted to hide under a rock the moment I saw Crystal and Sapphire. They are twin sisters who are my age and who were my step sisters for almost a year.

Both had a major crush on me at the time and always did everything together. I was actually not surprised when I saw them attending the same college it's like they don't know how to live their own life.

I was more shocked to see Taehyung he looked so mature compared to the young alien I met when we were kids. He loved his older brothers they were his role models so it makes sense that he would want to follow in their footsteps.

Of course once the youngest Kim brother recognized me he immediately wheeled me to where his brothers were. It was weird seeing them again. Out of all my ex step siblings they were a few of my most liked ones.

Jamie on the other hand is the same age as Jin. I moved in with his family a year after I was living with the twins. I saw Jamie 5 weeks after college started. I don't know if luck was on my side that I didn't see him till then or if it was the grim reaper toying with me.

One thing Jamie loved to play with was my light brown hair. Not many Koreans have my hair color so I definitely didn't want him to recognize me.

That day after school I went to the convenient store and bought some pink hair dye. I honestly didn't think it would turn out as bright as it did.

When I was done I honestly loved it. Probably one of the first times I thought I looked pretty. Pink suited me. I just hoped Jamie wouldn't recognize me now.

Jamie sadly spotted me when we went to the restroom at the same stupid time. If it wasn't for me drinking too much banana milk at lunch then he would of never of noticed me.

Of course it's been 3 weeks now since he started talking to me. Of course when people see a boy in a wheelchair yelling at someone to stop word gets around and Kai got angry I didn't ask for help.

Now someone who was my everything at one point in my life is back and is trying to help. I don't want pity because I'm in a chair. I don't want fake sympathy. I have been doing fine on my own and I will handle Jamie on my own.

Though I did kinda want to meet Jimin's friends. Did he act the same way with me as he did the others? I want to be careful though.

I was attached to Jimin before and it destroyed me when I wasn't able to see him again. The night of the accident when I lost my father all I wanted was to see Jimin and his parents. I didn't even care about not having feelings in my legs all I wanted was people that were close to me.

I was alone in the hospital no one came to see or visit me. The daily nurses tried to help me with the loss I felt but at the end of the day I was still alone.

My first day out of the hospital was 3 months later. I was wheeled out to a very thin woman who wore the fakest smile in existence. She was my mother. A woman who officials spent a few months trying to find.

Since she married so much it was hard to find her location to tell them about my father and her son.
Her son that she never once called to wish happy birthday or to see how he was. A mother who wouldn't even walk into the hospital to sign discharge papers because she didn't want to put her cigarette out.

I was 11 when I lost my father but he told me his story with my mother. When I was 9 he took out her photograph. She was 25 when they met completely engulfed in the party scene.

They got pregnant my dad got a job to support them. My mother expected to get proposed to but my dad refused saying he wasn't ready. My dad quit smoking and drinking along with some other drugs he was experimenting at the time. He made my mother as well even though she fought everyday with him about it. About a month after I was born my dad came home from work and found everything in the apartment gone. Everything was gone except for me who was crying in the bassinet that was left behind.

Sure I was young for my dad to tell me that but I was mature for my age. I'm glad he told me though so I could finally stop asking about that ratchet woman.

My father deserved so much more than what he got in life. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss him. I miss him and the life we shared together. A life where I was actually loved and happy. Where I was open about accepting people in my life. Now all I do is count down the days till it's just me again.

Even now as I wheel myself beside Jimin to eat lunch with him I'm just waiting for him to walk away too.