A fairy tale (gay) Christmas

👑December 12th👑

Princess Amalia Sofia👑

Because I trust you, because you are my friend, through thick and thin we will survive. Even if you tell me to leave, I know it will be for the best. My first true friend, my first true hope for something normal. I trust you with all of my might, with all of my life

❄️👑❄️

"I think it's best if you leave"

How did I end up in this situation?

Well, December 12th was a very eventful day after all...

It all started in the morning, very early in the morning. The sun hadn't risen over the horizon yet, and the air outside was still cold from the quiet night. Servants and royals, we all slept restlessly except for the knights and soldiers.

With a single candle burning on the desk next to my bed, illuminating the room, I slept as well as I could. Nightmares about what could have happened to my brother came and went, and my worry never stopped. Not just worry for him, but all of my siblings. Marigold and Maryann, Rubrum and mother and father. Where they all okay?

Horrid images of what could have happened to them flashed by. They must all be alive, right? If Clearblue died, I would become next in line. Was I ready to face fate and become Queen if needed? The questions and the thoughts that I compressed during the day, care alive and vivid during the night.

In the room next to mine, slept Mina and Daisy. Innocently next to each other, or so you would think. My sisters, my friends, both of them should be safe and happy, yet they were stuck in this war, just like me. On the other side slept Zyr, my first friend. The one who would secretly sacrifice anything in order to save us, the one I knew I could trust to the fullest.

And so the peaceful night was broken into yells of battle. The enemy had found their way to the castle again!

Doors were open, everyone ran to get dressed, soldiers into battle. Mina rushed past my room, dressed in the armor she slept with, holding the sword she kept under the bed. Always prepared.

Zyr rushed into my room and helped me find the warmest dress I had. I was partly confused, but I had a feeling in my gut about what he was doing. They have found us, time to go. But not everybody, because that would not be safe.

They have found us, yet again, so it's time for me to go. Just like my brother.

"I think it's best if you leave"

His voice held weight. His words were sad, yet I knew that he meant it to the fullest. Leaving was now better than staying, and maybe my nightmares existed because I knew that too.

"Once the battle has calmed down, you leave by horse. Find a house to stay in, something safe, something small. I prepared a letter of instructions and other things for you, so you will always know what to do"

And without a word, Daisy came in. It didn't take long before she understood the situation.

Zyr pushed the letter into my hands, and left the room to go search for the duchess. A last glance was our final goodbye. My first friend, would this be the last time we see each other? And if so, would it be me or him that would die? Would the decision of leaving become fatal for my survival, or fatal for my death?

Daisy helped me dress, the more clothes the better for the cold weather. At night it would be cold, and I would have to stand it, riding through the forest through extreme conditions. Although tears shone in her eyes, not a single word was shared between us. This was not the moment for talking, not the moment for feelings or sad goodbyes. It was only a moment for action.

I got a sword and a bag, filled with a blanket, money, food and more clothes. This was all I needed to survive, even I knew that. Even through I had been spoiled all of my life, I knew when to be serious and not helpless. Many years of war had passed through my childhood. I knew what to do, but now there was only one difference. I was alone.

The battle raged on outside, and I couldn't see or hear who was winning. I was given a white horse from Daisy and Teno, who had both followed me outside. The poor animal stepped around nervously, the sounds were threatening. I jumped up on the horse, and held on to the saddle strings. Once I was finished preparing I looked down at my new friends. This was the final goodbye, maybe for good.

"Stay strong yeah? Before you know it, everything will go back to normal"

With tears in both my eyes and theirs, I gave my horse a sign, and it ran off.

Through cold and snow, my horse pulsed though the snow. The trees were high, just like before. Nothing but green and white for miles and miles and miles. Nothing but my own tears blurring my vision, as the landscape before me turned into abstract art.

Who knows where this could lead? I could accidentally stumble upon the enemy, or wolves or anyone dangerous. I was just a princess, one of the highest positions in the land, yet utterly helpless by myself. But I couldn't be helpless, not when the fate of both my life and my country rested on my shoulders.

Thankfully, I was alone now. For hours I had been alone, as night turned into day and sunlight into clouds. Soon the clouds let out tiny blobs of snowfall, that turned into a fast and heavy snowstorm. As sharp pieces of snow pierced my skin, hit me in my eyes and turned my skin red, I could nothing but cry.

Because for once in my life, I was finally alone. I could finally cry as much as I wanted, without being judged by anyone around me. Not even the air could judge me, because my tears were not visible against the melting snow on my skin.

Sometimes being brave means being alone. And I learned that the hard way.

❄️👑❄️