𝚆𝚑𝚘 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞? (𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚘 𝚡 𝚔𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚒)

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𝚆𝚑𝚘 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞?
𝚂𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚘 𝚡 𝙺𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚛𝚒

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝟷𝟶

*𝚜𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚢 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚝𝚊𝚔𝚎𝚗 𝚖𝚎 𝚊 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜*

𝙺𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚛𝚒'𝚜 𝙿𝙾𝚅

We had to go back to school today,I really did not want to. I had a great weekend hanging out with Toshi,we hung out all weekend as a couple,I was hoping we could actually go on a date next weekend,I just needed to gather the confidence to ask him.

I got to school and just went straight to homeroom after talking to Hitoshi for a little while. His arm had gotten a lot better,but there was still a scar,and I hated myself every time I looked at it. I was still kind of scared to touch him and for him to touch me,I didn't want to hurt him so I would flinch whenever he would try and hug me,but he would just stop for second and just pull me into a hug anyway,I didn't mind though. I was just so scared that I would hurt him again,even worse than last time...or that next time,I could kill him...

𝚂𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚘'𝚜 𝙿𝙾𝚅

Everything has been great since me and Denki started dating,other than the fact he would flinch whenever I would try touch him,I knew why,but I still didn't like it. He keeps thinking it was his fault when it wasn't. My arms even healed now,but yet he's still scared,I mean,I understand...I would be the same way if the roles were reversed,but I still hate him flinching at my touch,it hurts me,but I try my best to hide it from him. I just push through his fear and just hug him anyway. He even tried pushing me away the other day,that hurt even more,but I just kissed him and it seemed to soothe him.

𝙵𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚑𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔

Huh? Shaking? What's that? I turned around to see Denki next to me,but he looked terrified and he was shaking and sweating. I didn't want to see him like this again,it makes me worry about him. I looked at his body up and down,there was no electricity so I gently shook him awake. He shot up out of bed while screaming my name and crying. I quickly pulled him into a hug,but he tried to push me away.

"Shhh,it's okay. You're okay,I'm okay,I'm here." I tried my best to soothe him,but it wasn't working. He kept trying to get out of my grasp and it was hurting.

"No! Get off me! I'm going to hurt you again! LET GO!" He was punching my chest over and over again,trying to get away. I had had enough of it pretty quickly. I grabbed his face and pulled him away from me,only to bring his lips to mine. Again,he struggled and tried to get away,but he soon gave up and melted into the kiss. He started gripping onto my shirt and he was also crying,that's when we separated and I held onto him in my arms again...I hated seeing him like this. It scares the shit out of me.

"Toshi...I-I'm s-so sorry..." That was all he managed to get out through his shaken sobs,I just held onto him as tight as I could as I tried my best to keep the tears hidden,I needed to be strong for him in this moment.

"For what,Denki? You've done nothing wrong." I began to run my hands through his hair,doing my best to comfort him.

"I hurt you again...I kept punching you. I'm sorry. I'm just scared that if I shock you again,that it'll kill you..." It pained me to see him like this,I hated it. I just want him to be okay.