𝚆𝚑𝚘 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞? (𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚘 𝚡 𝚔𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚒)

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𝚆𝚑𝚘 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞?
𝚂𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚘 𝚡 𝙺𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚛𝚒

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝟾

⚠️SUICIDE MENTION⚠️

✨after Aizawa's pov. This chapter will be kind of a small break from all the depressing shit and it'll just be kind of nice and light hearted. I hope you still like it all the same! Also,I appreciate the one person who is actually reading this story,thank you very much :) WhatAmI_lol ✨

𝙰𝚒𝚣𝚊𝚠𝚊'𝚜 𝙿𝙾𝚅

It's been about three days since Shinso and Mekisa came to live with me. It was going well,I actually kind of enjoyed the company. I had been living on my own for so long,almost 10 years,actually,so it was nice to have some other people in the house. It was a big house,after all,might as well fill in the space.

I promised myself I wouldn't love anyone again,not since him. I fell in love with him and I told him,terrible idea on my part. He rejected me and started throwing punches at me while calling me a faggot over and over again. He was my best friend and I ruined that. But,after a while,he apologised and we actually ended up being a couple,it lasted for about 5 years,before we got into a fight over basically nothing,and we didn't talk for a few days,I had finally had enough of it and went over to his place,but when I got there,I found something I never wanted to see. There he was,hanging from the ceiling by a rope...that was the worst moment of my entire life,I actually threw up as soon as I saw him like that.

I had to tell his parents,that was horrible. What happened that day is the reason I became so closed off. I pushed everyone away in order to protect them,I didn't want to ruin their lives like I did with him. I know it was my fault that he killed himself,and I have never forgiven myself,and I never will.

I broke my own promise that I made to myself and fell in love again,and this time it was with a gorgeous woman with purple hair that was almost always in a ponytail or bun. She's amazing and I can't stop thinking about her. But I don't want to ruin hers and her sons life,they've both been through enough. I can't push her away though,she lives with me. But I also don't want to push her away,I want her with me. I don't want to lose her,I don't want to lose either of them.

Mekisa is amazing and I can't do the same to her that I did to him. I can't put Shinso through that either. He's a good kid,and he's gonna be a great hero. I've already been told that he looks like me and that we're a lot alike in general,which I guess I can see. I can't ruin that kids life,I won't. And I won't let anyone else hurt either of them. As long as I'm around,nothing will happen to either of them ever again.

𝚂𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚘'𝚜 𝙿𝙾𝚅

No school today,thank god. But yet,I still woke up to the blaring sound of my alarm,why was that still on? I must've forgotten to turn it off from yesterday. 10:30 is what my phone read. The light was blinding and it hurt my eyes. I begrudgingly dragged myself out of bed. I stretched out my body like a cat and walked into the kitchen,I could smell food,bacon? Eggs? Rice? Breakfast!

"Morning." It was Aizawa. I was surprised it was him cooking and not my mom. Actually,I didn't even see my mom anywhere,was she still in bed? That's unusual.

"Good morning. Is my mom still in bed?" He nodded.

"Yeah,she didn't sleep well last night. She was up until about 7am. I don't really sleep much anyway so I stayed with her until she ended up falling asleep,and it's too early right now for her to be up so I'm letting her sleep,it's a weekend anyway." I was kind of surprised that he stayed up all night with her,but it was also nice and I was grateful he was there for her.