𝚆𝚑𝚘 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞? (𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚘 𝚡 𝚔𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚒)

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𝚆𝚑𝚘 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞?
𝚂𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚘 𝚡 𝙺𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚛𝚒

⚠️MENTIONS OF RAPE⚠️

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝟽

𝙺𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚛𝚒'𝚜 𝙿𝙾𝚅

Today was Friday,I had no idea what we're doing in school today,we never know until we actually get there anyway. I still felt terrible about what happened with Monoma,he may have deserved it for what he said,but I didn't mean to do it. I don't want to hurt anyone,and Shinso saw everything. He must be scared of me now,I hope he's not but I wouldn't be surprised. I know what Aizawa said,but I don't know what to think anymore,could I really be a hero if I can't even control my quirk or my anger? I just hoped that today would be better than yesterday.

Yesterday was a pretty crappy day,apart from lunch,that was awesome. Shinso was actually getting along with my friends,apart from Bakugo,but he barely gets on with anyone,so that wasn't surprising. But I was so glad that he got along with everyone else,maybe he would be able to hang out with us more at lunch,rather than him being alone all the time.

I didn't sleep last night,something wouldn't let me,maybe it was the guilt. I turned off my alarm clock that was supposed to wake me up and dragged myself out of bed with tired eyes. I spent the whole night just staring into nothing with the deafening silence surrounding me. It was kind of terrifying but it's not like I could get away from it,no matter how hard I tried.

It took me longer than usual to get ready,considering my body clearly didn't want to move. I constantly kept yawning and when I looked at myself in the mirror,I had bags under my eyes that could rival Shinso's. I just shrugged it off and continued to get ready. I knew some people would ask what's wrong,but I didn't care. I was too tired to care at this point. I got ready just on time and started to walk to school,I was also starting to regret getting out of bed.

𝚂𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚘'𝚜 𝙿𝙾𝚅

I wasn't exactly excited to go to school,but I was excited to see Kami. I wanted to know how he was doing,I didn't get a chance to see him after school because Aizawa wanted to go home and have dinner. I just hoped that he was okay after what happened yesterday. He seemed pretty broken up about it,I knew it wasn't because it was Monoma that he hurt,but the fact that he hurt someone at all. He didn't like it and that was obvious,my guess was that it had happened before,but it was a lot worse,that's why he was so shaken about it. I wanted to ask him,but I didn't know if it was too personal and too soon so I left it. I'd let him tell me on his own terms.

I got to school early again,not as early as yesterday though. Instead of going straight to my homeroom class,I decided I would go to class 1A to see if a certain energetic blonde was there. Surely enough,he was. But he wasn't the same energetic boy I was used to.

"Hey Kami. Are you okay?" He lifted his eyes from the desk and looked straight at me with eyes that were filled with exhaustion and...guilt.

"Yeah,I'm fine. How'd you sleep last night?" Kami was quick to take the topic off of him,but I wasn't going to allow that.

"I slept okay. And how about you? It looks like you haven't slept in a week." I laughed slightly,hoping to cheer him up a bit,but it didn't seem to work,he only gave me a small,but forced smile.

"Ha,I guess I do. I just couldn't sleep last night. Something just wouldn't let me. It's happened before,but that was because of my quirk,this time it wasn't. I think this time,it was guilt that was keeping me up. Like my brain was trying to tell me I didn't deserve to sleep because of what I did. I don't know,it's kind of weird." I was glad he wasn't changing the subject this time,I wanted to know what was going on.