Sticky End

twelve

Nine o'clock in the evening when Xiumin came to fetch Luhan. With one glance at the man he loves, Xiumin knew Luhan was hiding something from him, but he decided to avert his attention from it.

'Come on Lulu, let's go home. We still need to start cooking' He smiled, but Luhan selfishly shook his head and replied,
'I want to move back here  Xiumin'
Xiumin's smile slowly faded away and a grimace replaced its place as he asked,
'You mean up until Sehun comes back?'
Luhan once again shook his head as he stared down at the floorboards, 'I'm going to stay here from now on'

Xiumin's world dimmed as his ears started ringing,
'Luhan's leaving my side?' he asked himself as he restrained his growing fury.

'I'm sorry, Xiumin but I think our little fued is enough. It's time that we make up' Luhan smiled at him. Xiumin bit his lower lip as he held Luhan's arm tightly and pushed him onto the wall.
Luhan was shocked with Xiumin's action, he asked, 'What are yo--?!'
But Xiumin didn't let him finish, in the middle of talking, he placed his mouth on Luhan's. It made him stop. But after a few seconds of sharing a deep kiss, Xiumin suddenly pulled his arms upwards. Luhan couldn't get away from his grip. He did his best to get Xiumin off. He was hurting him, but Xiumin just kept on pushing himself to Luhan.

'X-Xiumin, s-stop... please' Luhan was starting to tear up. 'It's painful... s-stop'

But all he could do was cry, he couldn't fight Xiumin's tight grip. He knew it was his fault why his friend acted that way... he pushed Xiumin to be that way. Selfishness led his best friend to be that way.
After sucking all the energy Luhan had, Xiumin literally dragged him away from their apartment, back to his. It was 11 o'clock when Xiumin decided to talk, after an hour of silence between them. He stood up then took something from his coat's pocket, once he got it he went back to where Luhan sat.

'Look at me' he said, and his partner's tired eyes gazed at him.
'It's an hour away from Christmas... but I couldn't wait any longer' he smiled as he knelt down and took the small box and opened it in front of Luhan.
'W-what... What are you doing?' he asked weakly
'Luhan, you're the only one I need in my life. I love you, and I want you to be mine. Only mine... so please? Marry me'
'I...' Luhan gulped, 'I don't know what to say... I-I'm glad that you love me this much, Xiumin'

Xiumin continued to smile at him, Luhan looked into his eyes. He wasn't there anymore... that wasn't the Xiumin he knew. It's someone different... he has become different.

'But... I... I can't accept this offer. I can't marry you' he was trembling as he replied.
Luhan watched how Xiumin's smile turned into a painful smirk, he grew more terrified at the sight of him. Then all of a sudden he stood up then walked away from Luhan.

'I can't believe this... I'm still not enough for you? After all we've been through...'
'X-Xiumin, please stop this... this isn't you'
He turned to Luhan and shouted, 'You made me like this, Luhan!!'
'I-I'm sorry... please... turn back to the Xiumin I knew'

Xiumin shook his head, 'I'm still the same. I'm going to make you love me no matter what happens'
'But I can't Xiumin!! Please, I know I've been selfish and I've been using you. But now I realized that this can't go on any longer. I can't do this to you anymore'
'I let you use me, I don't care how selfish you can be... all I want is that you forget Sehun and love me instead. Is that a hard thing to do? I've been here for you, so why are you afraid? Why can't you just accept me?'
'Xiumin... I'm sorry. But I can't lie to myself anymore... I love you but I can never put anyone before Sehun'

Silence surfaced their conversation, and both of them were left to look at each other's eyes. It wasn't long until tears started to show up from Xiumin's eyes. But before Luhan got to speak, Xiumin beat him to it.

With a bitter tone in his voice he said, 'Leave... Leave right now'

Luhan was dumbfounded with what he said. But he couldn't do anything, so he stood up, and walked towards the door. As he got out, the door behind him instantly shut, and he heard the locks click.

After locking the doors, Xiumin dropped down as he leaned at the door. He couldn't keep it in anymore. He cried, and cried. His hoarse voice mumbled words. Above all words was the name of the one he loved.