THE AROUSING CAVEMAN (the gentleman, caveman of mine)

CHAPTER TEWNTY-THREE

    Many of us suffering now from a heart ache, and so she is. There's no way to ease the pain she's been through right now. The second time she gives herself to him made her in pain again, and it's so much more than the last one.

She's been in her room for more than eight hours. Walang pahinga sa pag iyak, walang kain. She can't feel tiredness. All she can feel is her heart broken into small pieces.

Sigi lang Ria iiyak mo lang! Iiyak mo na lahat! Pagkatapos nito, kalimutan mo na sila! Wag mo na ulit hahayaan ang sarili mong saktan ka nila! Magdusa ka ngayon sa sakit! Dahil hanggang ngayon na lang yan! Kailangan bukas na bukas din ay maging masaya ka! Aniya sa sarili.

But how many times she speaks to herself, it always ended with her tears.

She doesn't feel tired but her body does. She fell asleep with a tears in her eyes.

Ria wake up in the middle of the night. She has difficulty in breathing, only find out that there's a heavy thing in her stomach. She gradually opened her eyes and see what is it.

Her tears fell again. Blue was sleeping beside her while hugging her.

She felt the swelling of her eyes due to crying. She thought that it's done, but no! It's not yet done. Hindi nauubos ang luha niya.

"I'm sorry..."

Mariing pinikit niya ang mata ng magising niya ito dahil sa pag iyak niya.

"I didn't mean to shout at you. I'm really sorry." Blue look so apologetic. He was sincerely felt sorry for her. He felt so bad for what happened.

Ria silently cried. Hindi siya sumagot, dahil wala siyang maisip na sasabihin dito.

"Don't cry... Please stop crying.. i don't want to see you like that." Blue wipe her tears and kissed her in the forehead.

"I was desperate to know her, I'm desperately wanted know more about us before. Siguro dahil wala akong maalala, at natuklasan kong may taong kayang ipaliwanag kung ano at kung sino ako noon. Kaya gusto kong makausap siya. But it doesn't mean that i will chose her over you. Remember what i have said, you are my life now, you're the reason why i wanted to live more."

"And i also remember that you said, that you don't care about your lost memories." Ria wipe her cheeks, at naupo.

Naupo din si Blue sa harap niya at pinag siklop ang mga kamay nila. "Yes, I don't care about that, but i want to know myself before, to make a better person for you." He held up her chin. "I want to make it up to you." Aniya habang hinuhuli ang mga nitong mailap. "Look at me.. please listen to me." Finally, Ria take a glance in him. "Wala akong pakialam sa nakaraan namin na sinasabi niya, ang gusto ko lang malaman kung anong klaseng tao ako noon, dahil ayokong dumating sa punto na kapag may naalala ako at napakasama ko palang tao. Paano ko ipapakilala ang totoong ako sa harap mo."

Hinawakan ni Ria ang mukha niya. "Wala akong pakialam kung masamang tao ka noon, o kung ano ka pa noon, ang importante sa akin ay yung ngayon. Kung ano ang pinapakita mo sa akin ngayon ay nasisiguro kong ikaw yun, ang totoong ikaw."

Ria remembered the things she did back then for her sister. Hindi din naman siya mabuting tao, dahil marami din siyang napatay, madumi din ang pagkatao niya. She's not perfect after all, their the same.

"Did you know that I've killed so many people back then." Pag amin niya. She felt that Blue have the right to know who really she is. She thinks that it is not fair for him. Gusto nito malaman ang buong pagkatao nito para sa kaniya, samantalang siya ay alam ang buong pagkatao niya pero hindi niya sinasabi dito ang nakaraan niya.