Piecing It Together | ✔

|Together again|

BlankFacedDevil I told you I would use it in my book :)

*Alexa's POV*

Was this what being a teenager felt like? Or was I just too young to be broken and overreacting it all?

Either way, after I was forced to go up to my room by Elonzo, I spent my time crying till I decided I didn't want to be with my mind much longer.

Instead, I wiped tears away and I stared at my reflection attempting to motivate myself even though I felt I would puke at the ugly sight in front of me.

As I lay on my bed, whispering-singing to distract myself while fiddling with the bracelet in my wrist, there was a knock in my door.

I didn't really get time to ask who had knocked, as the door swung open, revealing all of my brothers. Did I do something wrong?

Blake had my phone in his hands and my eyes widened in horror. If they had gone through my phone and phone Wattpad then I was going down.

Each of them entered entered the room ,in the order of age, and stood in front my bed. I suddenly felt very self conscious and harshly rubbed the tears of my face in embarrassment.

"Bambina," Will said after a few moments of awkward silence in his strict voice,"We really have to talk to you about a few things."

I didn't really have the need to say anything so I nodded.

"Verbal answers please."

Will's sudden cold vioce didn't help to warm my freezing self, but nevertheless, I mumbled my reply instead.

Blake whipped out his phone, holding mine in his other hand, and thrust the screen in front of my eyes.

I was hit with shock as my book was shown in front me. I had guessed all the awful possibilities that could've happened if they had found out I had Wattpad, but not once had I even imagined them finding my life story.

My cheeks reddened and I looked anywhere but the screen. They now knew how I felt at every situation between us from the past, they knew about Cherry, most worse is that all their secrets were exposed in my book.

"You kept secrets from us this whole fucking time?!" Blake suddenly burst out,"You lied to us, I should have never even trusted you!"

It was like a slap in the face. Everyone had their own secrets they didn't want to share, I had many, and I wasn't going to just expose them. I take a bit of time to open up, and month is not enough.

My stepbrother's kept silent, not even making the effort to stop Blake.

"I knew it, I goddamn knew you were hiding something!"

If I had tears in me, I would've cried, but I had done enough of that. I saw Elonzo open his mouth to silence Bake, but I was quicker.

"Please," I please,"Stop! Listen to me, hear me out!"

The silence was enough for me to carry on," You know the saying 'Never judge a book by it's cover?' I find it funny how people just ignore it.

"We all are books, books that have gems inside us. Some gems are beautiful, awesome. They open up to almost anyone. Take me as one of the opposite books.

"I am sealed closed, tightly shut, I won't budge at all. There is a gem inside me, my gem is worth so much. Why don't tI open up, show off? It's because even though the gem inside me is worth lot, it's ugly. I am scared is of opening up as I fear people won't like me because of the gem. I'm is scared that other books won't accept me. You aren't helping, stop judging, okay? I most definitely won't open up like this. When I open up, you are going to see the most ugliest thing ever, but learn to accept, you'll start to see that you've been looking at the gem wrong, you'll start to see why  the gem is worth a lot.

"I'm not ready to tell you my secrets, but I was going to one day. I just need to find myself first." With that, I was done. I wanted to say more, but I didn't exactly know what. All my thoughts were jumbled up.

My stepbrothers took a sharp intake of breath, and I knew, to stop their anger from coming out. I had literally just yelled at them, but I felt as though it was necessary, they had to know how I felt.

Besides, if I hadn't known about the mafia, they would've been hiding secrets as well.

"Alexa," Elonzo called my name. I looked at him, but saw no emotion. The eyes made me nervous, and I regretted yelling almost immediately."What gave you the right to tell a bunch of strangers who read your book about everything in your life but not us? We're family."

"I made that book so I didn't bottle up my emotions, I never wanted anyone to know them, but I the same time I feared I would get depressed," I mumbled quietly.

Blake sighed and punched the bridge of his nose. It was deadly silent, all of us had fun out of words even though we had so much to say.

Will walked up to me and sat down, rubbing circles on my back. I just sat there, still fiddling with my bracelet.

"You weren't supposed to find out about the mafia, Alexa, the less you know, the better." Elonzo's forehead was crossed and a sudden pang of guilt hit me, I was the reason he was stressed out. Why did I have to get Wattpad?

"Now, we must talk about his Cherry person, she seems really close to you," There wasn't an ounce of feeling to what Elonzo had said.

I widened my eyes in horror,"I swear - she really is one year older than me and not some random stranger."

"How can you be sure?" Ryder butted in,"It couldn've been a plan from the Russian Mafia so they could find your whereabouts and come to torture you."

"I know - I just know - Okay! I've spent enough time with her in my life to know! Besides, she became my best friend before I even met you guys."

Ryder raised his eyebrows but I ignored it.

Blake sighed,"It's honestly too late to do anything now." They all looked at Elonzo, who nodded. Will have my shoulders one tight squeeze before leaving with my three younger stepbrothers.

Once the door shut, Elonzo came and sat down next to me on the bed.

"Alexa," He started off,"Look, I'm really sorry about earlier, I was just so stressed out."

"It's alright," I whispered, looking away,"I knew I cry way too much than necessary, I'm sorry too."

Elonzo held my chin and forced me to look in his eyes,"Never apologize about crying. It makes you stronger."

I nodded. Elonzo's eyes got a bit dark as I didn't verbally reply. I guess he didn't want to ruin the moment so he ignored it.

"I'm glad you don't think of me as a monster. I may be cold hearted, but I care for you, deeply."

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