I Love You More Than Before (Drarry)

Chapter Nine

AN: So it's been awhile since I wrote anything. Sorry about that. But I've grown this addiction to watching shows off of Amazon. Mainly oldish shows from Nickelodeon like H2O. But I also Have made it up to somewhere in season 4 of Glee and have the complete first two season music albums on my iPod. Anyways, just wanted to say sorry for falling off the face of the earth writing wise.

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Harry's POV

I have no idea what's happening anymore. I go from thinking my feelings for Draco were one-sided, to Draco trying to convince me to date him. And that he loves me.

I believe he loves me. Mainly because I could see it in his eyes when he explained it. But I can't date him.

Sure it's probably the only thing I truly want in life but I can't drag him down with all my baggage. That would be cruel and completely unfair. He could do so much better than me. And therefore I'm going to let him move on from me. 

Because him being in a relationship with me would be the worst possible thing he could do. I'm not worth the amount of work it would take to make me even slightly normal.

And that's saying something because my idea of slightly normal is much less "normal" than most people consider it to be. So the fact of it being hard to qualify as partially normal in my mind, it would be a thousand times harder to reach normal in the minds of everyone else.

I can't really blame myself for being as bizarre as I am, though. It had mainly been Voldemort's fault. The depression and schizophrenia mainly. And no. Just because I have schizophrenia, doesn't mean I hear voices. That's just a possible hallucination some people get.

And the reason why I have those two disorders is mainly because I had become so paranoid over the fact that he wanted me dead. And the fact that he practically went out of his way to make sure my life was a living hell.

The utter joys of being me- not.

Draco's POV

I can see the self-doubt in his eyes. That's never a good thing. Especially when trying to convince someone to date you. That's one of the last things you want to see.

But I didn't know exactly what he was thinking about, so I couldn't help him very much.

Instead I just pulled him back tight on top of me in a strong hug. If I couldn't help him mentally at the moment, I was going to reassure him physically as much as I can.

I was most afraid to ask what he was thinking about because it might cause him to close up even more then he normally was. I knew I didn't have his trust yet. And that meant I couldn't break whatever trust he has barely given me so far.

Therefore, this was going to be a long process. And most likely painful too. But it was worth it. He was worth it.

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AN: Tada! And finally another chapter has been released from the clutches of my brain. Hope you enjoy and remember to leave your support!

Hurgly Out!!!!!!!!