Forever & Always

Chapter 11

Date: December 25, 2011
Location: JJs House

Emilys POV

The door flew open and little feet were running around the room. "Emmy, wake up it's Christmas!" Henry yells. I opened my eyes and groaned.

"Five more minutes, please." I groaned again sitting up.

"Emmy come on Nana and Mommy are both up I'm waiting for you."

I look at the door to see JJ and Sandy standing there smiling. "Ugh fine let me brush first."

He squealed and they all left the room. It's too early for this. Ugh. I have to get up or henrys going to come back and I'll never hear the end of this. I thought. I get up and see a shirt and basketball shorts laid out for me at the end of the bed. I smiled knowing JJ laid out my house close just like she used to.

I get up and put on my clothes then go to the bathroom. When I finish washing my face and brushing my teeth I go downstairs to see Henry patiently waiting for me so he can open his gifts, Sandy is sitting on the couch, and JJ just finished making coffee.

"Here," JJ said, handing me a cup.

"Thank you, angel." I take the cup and sit on the couch, with JJ seated next to me. "Ok bubba, you can open your gifts now," I say to henry.

He barely lets me finish my sentence before he starts grabbing gifts and ripping up the wrapping paper. As he opened his gifts I started to feel progressively worse because I didn't get him anything. Like what type of mother that is financially stable doesn't get their kid something for Christmas. I know I was in a coma up until a couple of days ago but still, I should've brought him something. What if he thinks I don't love him? First I miss his birthday and thanksgiving now I don't get him anything for Christmas. Wow Emily, good job.

I continue to watch him opening his gifts, he looks really happy. Everything about this situation makes me feel bad. It's almost like he doesn't need me, he has his happy life with JJ, Sandy, and the team. He's surrounded by a great mom, grandmother, and godmother, while I'm just here. He's supposed to be my son but I don't take care of him and protect him and do all the things a mother's supposed to do. I can't be like her. I wasn't supposed to end up like her. I'm just like Will and my mom.

"Hey Em." I hear someone say but I'm still in my thoughts so I couldn't answer. "Emily?" Once again I could pull myself out of my thoughts to answer. "Emily," JJ says, shaking my finally getting me out of my head.

"Hi... um, what'd you say?" Her face had concern written on my places than one but I didn't want to talk about it. If I say I'm a bad mom out loud that makes it really, and I can't deal with that right now. So I covered it up with a smile letting her know I'm ok, she nodded and let it go.

"Those gifts in the green Christmas wrapping paper are for you."

I looked at her confused then looked at the tree, there were six or seven boxes wrapped in the green Christmas wrapping paper she was talking about. "But I didn't get you anything... I can't take those."

"Emily you were in a car crash that put you in a coma and you were just released yesterday, I didn't expect anything from you."

I shook my head. "No, I can't take them." She frowns at me. "I didn't get any of you guys anything, you stayed at the hospital with me for days, and I'm living in your house intruding on your space. So I can't take them."

"We don't need anything from you, we're just glad you're here. This house isn't my house, it's our house and if I remember correctly you brought this house for us. You're not intruding, everyone wants you here. Babe, I want you here." She gets off the couch, grabs the gifts, and forces them in my lap. "Open the gift before I tell my mom you're being rude." She laughs, sitting down next to me.