Magic Love (A Cethany Fanfiction)

Chapter 18 - Confused But in Love

Connor

All I do is push her away. Only because it hurts so much to look at her and think about how beautiful she is.

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My doorbell rings mid-afternoon on Sunday. I'm in my bedroom, doing some last minute homework. I hear Nicola get the door.

And then I hear Beth.

Oh, God, Beth.

"Con!" Nicola shouts. "It's Beth!"

I run downstairs, almost tripping over myself. And then I see her. Her hair is in her natural loose waves and she's wearing a light blue shirt with dark jeans and her white sunglasses are pulling her hair back.

"Bethers," I say. "What are you..."

"To talk to you," she says. "I need to talk to you."

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Beth

I don't know why I'm here. I'm so stupid. After just going through a breakup, I should've known he would want to be alone. The way I just randomly showed up and the look on his face when he saw me made me think this was a mistake.

He leads me to his room. I've been here before. My brain lights up with the memories of his navy blue walls and pictures with friends tacked up on his bulletin board.

"What do you want to talk about?" he asks. He's doing that thing again, where he won't look at me.

I hesitate. "What's going on, Con? Why won't you talk to me? I thought we were supposed to be best friends."

"We are."

"Then why? Why can't you even look at me when I'm talking to you?"

He finally looks up, and I see his eyes again. Blue, two bottomless oceans and I can't find the surface.

"Sorry." It's all he says.

I stare at him for so long and after a while he cracks.

"I'm sorry, Bethany! I'm sorry." He sits on his bed, head in his hands. "It's hard. Life's hard. Cass hates my guts, and you came back and I can't get my feelings in order. I'm sorry I've been pushing you away."

"I want to understand, Connor. I want to know what it is. Does it have to do with Cass?"

"I--It's just..." His voice trails off, and then he tries again, hesitating. "You don't know what it's like to love someone and know you'll never be able to get them."

I think about this. He still loves Cass. This is making me confused. Why would he break up with her if he still loved her? He could probably still get her back... and then I'm looking at him again. I'm trailing my eyes along his strong arms and I stare at his light brown hair and back at those beautiful eyes and wow I'm so in love.

I'm in love. With the wrong person.

"Actually," I whisper. "I do know."

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Connor

After Bethany leaves, I think about what she said. I couldn't quite hear her, but it sounded like she said that she does know what it feels like to love someone and know you'll never be able to get them.

I sigh. She has Adam and they're obviously in love. What more could she want? The thought of Beth being in love with two other people makes my head hurt.

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The next day, I walk Bethany home from school. Apparently Adam had something to do.

When we arrive at her house, she looks at me slowly. "Do you wanna come in?"

I shrug. "Okay." I walk inside and smell the scent of my childhood wafting through the walls. I always loved coming here. I follow her to her room and she closes the door.

I sit on the floor with my legs crossed and she sits beside me, leaning against my shoulder.

My hands wander over to her hair, and I start playing with it. It reminds me of before, when she and I would watch Friends or Full House on her small TV while sitting on the floor.

"You never told me what that thing was about," she says suddenly.

"What thing?"

"The thing I saw every time I looked at you. Christmas."

I stop moving completely. She doesn't notice.

"I don't remember which Christmas exactly," she continues. "I just remember us talking, and mistletoe..."

"What happens if you look at me right now?" I ask.

She lifts her head and stares into my eyes. She stays like that for about five seconds.

"We..." She blinks.

Damn it.

I kiss her.

A/N: YES I KNOW THIS IS SHORT AND YES I KNOW THIS IS KINDA A CLIFFHANGER AND YES I KNOW THIS IS THE FIRST CHAPTER IN EIGHT DAYS I'M SORRY. I hope this story will become a little more interesting soon. I just need to build the relationships a little more. Love ya xx