A Song for You

Chapter 8

March 2013

Several months had passed since I wrote that song for Björn. Recording it was dreadful. It really was but at least I somehow managed to hide my breakdowns from Jörgen and Peter but that also meant my family had to continue dealing with them. Linda and her family did the best that they could when it came to my breakdowns along with Christian and Isabelle. Even Frida was a big help when I somehow managed to fly to her home in Switzerland to pay her and her partner, Henry, a visit.

My family would take me out to eat and go on walks and even my granddaughters did everything that they could when it comes to my breakdowns. It's safe to say that I ended up having little tea parties with them as a result and as awkward as this sounds, I actually really enjoyed those tea parties. They really got my mind off things and it just went to show you how much Tilda, Esther, and Signe love and care for their Mormor.

Since then, I've finished recording the album and the song I wrote which I ended up calling I Keep Them On The Floor Beside My Bed, is the last song on A, which is the name of my new album that will officially be released later in the spring. The albums release date is going to be on or around May 10 and I'll be heading to London for 10 days to do some promotion. Well, I've already started to do a bit of promotion for the album already but still. When you are an artist of some sort, you're going to want as many people as you can appreciating it and given my reclusive nature as lots of people say, I'm really taking a risk here.

And yes I know, the name of the song that I wrote for Björn has a long name. But I genuinely couldn't come up with anything else. But anyways, I've already started promoting A and so far, I've had some promotional pictures taken of me, including the album cover. I've already filmed the music video for When You Really Loved Someone, which is the lead single on my new album. And I've already done several interviews, both here in Sweden and abroad. Yesterday, I was interviewed by an Italian reporter who had flown to Stockholm to interview me for my new album and tonight, I'm being interviewed on Skavlan, which is a very popular talk show here in Scandinavia and based on what I've seen, he's an amazing interviewer and I know this from both having seen his show before and from the fact that Skavlan had previously interviewed Benny and Björn live on his show.

However, I can't help but have any doubts. My album technically hasn't been released yet but it's the digital age so people have access to my album even if it hasn't officially been released, which probably means that Björn may or may not have listened to my new album. If that's the case, then I'm doomed. Björn probably already hates me because of that song but at least the public doesn't seem to hate me either, but we never know for certain. And now, I can already feel myself starting to cry again as usual. But I can't cry. I'm going to be interviewed on one of the most important talk shows in the country to talk about and promote my new album along with the new ABBA museum that's opening in early May that Björn has already been promoting. The same museum opening that I won't be at because I'll be in London promoting A. You just have to love scheduling conflicts.

Anyways, the interview is in about an hour from now and I'm sitting here backstage feeling myself getting emotional again and knowing that I have to get my act together or else I'm going to become the laughing stock of both the entire nation and the entire world. It's going to be so embarrassing. Even more embarrassing than it already is and I already can't wait for all of this to be over but I still have a long way to go. I'm already very anxious and I know I'm going to have to walk confidently as I enter the set to be interviewed. After all, I'm not the only person being interviewed tonight. Tennis legend Mats Wilander is also being interviewed along with two others so this should be interesting. And I also should be on my best behavior and not mess this up. God help me...