The Frantastic Ways To Love (A Connor Franta Fanfiction)

Chapter 8: The Heart Wants What It Wants

I noticed that he didn't want to talk about it.

Me: "Connor?"

Connor: "Yes?"

Me: "Do you love me? Does your heart also jump out of your chest when you look in my eyes? Do you suddenly miss me when I'm not with you? Do you want this?!"

He kissed me.

Connor: "Of course, I do. I'm madly in love with you. I don't how it happened, it was all so fast. But every time I'm with you I'm sure that I can stay with you forever. Chris, I love you, like I've never loved anyone else. And I promise, nothing's going on with me and Troye. It's just something complicated. But no matter what, now that I found you, I will not let go of you."

I've never felt that way. Every time he was close to me, I suddenly ran out of air. My heart was always beating. He was my desire, my guilty pleasure.

Connor: "I think the others are going for ice cream now. Do you want to go with them?"

I really wanted to stay alone with Connor, but Kian invited me to go with them. So I told Connor we should go and get ice cream with them.

Connor: "OK, I just have to make a call first."

He kissed my forehead and walked away from me. Who was he calling? Was it Troye? Why couldn't I hear the call?

Connor: "Let's go?"

I nodded. He smiled and kissed me again. He was so gentle and passionate. The hottest thing about him was how he made me feel. He made me feel wanted, loved.

I didn't want to lose him.

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*at the ice cream shop*

Kian: "Hmm, this is so freaking good!"

Connor looked at me and asked: "Do you like it?"

Me: "I've had ice cream before, Connor."

He winked at me and kissed my forehead. In front of everybody. Everyone was staring at us like they just saw a ghost.

Me: "Excuse me, I have to go to the bathroom."

When I got into the bathroom my mind just exploded. I knew why they were surprised. They probably all thought that I was straight. And so did I.

I started freaking out.

Am I straight, gay or bisexual? It was so confusing! I didn't even think about it. It never came to my mind, but now that it did, I didn't know what to do.

I ran out of the bathroom.

Me: "I'm sorry guys I have to go."

Kian: "But we wanted to go to karaoke now."

I always wanted to try karaoke without being in my house, with my mom. But I couldn't. I ran out of the ice cream store and wanted to call a Uber car. When I was dialing the number Connor appeared behind me.

Connor: "I'll take you to the hotel. "

Me: "OK, but fast please."

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*in the car*

Connor: "What happened?"

Me: "Nothing."

Connor: "Please tell me. I can help you.

Me: "No you can't Connor! You can't just help people because you want to! This is something that I have to deal with myself!"

I could see that he didn't like me yelling at him. He was sad.

Me: "I'm sorry. I know you just wanted to help."

Connor stopped the car.

Connor: "Can you please tell me what's going on?!"

Me: "Is just that... Before getting to know you, I thought I was... straight. And now I'm confused about all this. How did it all happen so fast."

Connor: "I know how you feel. The thing is, you're not in love with a gender. You're in love with someone. And when you're in love, race, gender, body type or anything else, it doesn't matter."

He winked. That wink made me feel like I was his little brother. It's like he winked at me everytime he teached something about life.

He started driving again.

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*at the hotel*

Me: "Thanks for taking me here, again."

He smiled.

Me: "Do you... want to like... come in?"

Connor: "I thought you'd never ask."

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*in my hotel room*

Me: "OK, I'm just going to take a fast shower, will you still be alive when I come back?"

He laughed and said: "Most probably."

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When I finished my shower, Connor was sleeping on my bed.

Me: "Connor?"

Connor opened his eyes slowly.

Connor: "Oh sorry. I didn't mean to..."

Me: "Do you want to stay the night?"

Connor looked at me surprised. He smiled and nodded.

I laid next to him. He started cuddling me.

My hair was pretty messy because of the water so he took away the hair that was in front of my eyes. We stared at each other for a couple seconds.

And suddenly he just grabbed my hair, and we started making out. He came closer to my body, so that he could kiss me better. I got the chills.

Connor: "Are you sure?"

I looked at him and kissed his forehead.

Me: "...Yes..."

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