The it boy 🖤

Cutie

It was they day after what had happened with the douche bag, and Felix has been on my mind all night. I found out from Aubrey that the douche bags name was Jeff like what a generic ass name but anyway I guess I can't stay mad forever, plus I've got so much more to think about.

Aside from the whole Felix situation I honestly haven't been doing pretty well and I've been losing a lot of sleep over it, last night was one of the worst nights yet and it was shown on my face by the clear dark circles under my eyes and the knotted mess I called my hair. I had finally gotten out of bed and started to rush to get ready for school as I had just realised I slept in which has been happening a lot lately. Once I was done getting ready I got in the car and drove to school, I got out of the car and was relieved to see that there was still a lot of people sitting around near the lockers and the halls.

I walked up the stairs to where my locker was and I saw Aubrey and Calvin talking and laughing with each other. Calvin is tall with blonde hair swept to the side of his face and forest green eyes, for the past couple of years he's always been there for me through everything and he's always made sure to put a smile on my face even when it was the last thing I wanted to do. I walked over to my two friends and greeted them with a hug but as I was hugging Calvin I heard the sound of someone clearing their throat. I looked up to see who it was and saw none other than Felix staring at me with a look of what seemed to be jealousy, so I quickly pulled away from Calvin and started to put my bag into my locker.

Aubrey and Calvin then continued their previous conversation as I started to grab the books I needed from my bag. "Hey, y/n" Felix said as he opened his locker which was very conveniently next to mine, "h-hey" I replied sheepishly making sure to avoid eye contact as I had forgotten to try to cover up the extremely dark circles under my eyes. "Y/n?"said Felix in a stern questioning tone, "yes" I replied. "Why aren't you looking at me?", I quickly snapped my head up at him feeling slightly embarrassed that I had been caught avoiding his gaze "w-what no I'm not" I said quickly which of course made him chuckle but when his eyes landed on my face his smile faltered and I quickly turned back to my locker not wanting him to see me anymore.

"Y/n are you alright?" He questioned "I-I'm fine" I stuttered as I shut my locker and quickly walked away not wanting to tell him how I really felt as I was scared he would react badly. The rest of the day went by in a blur and My thoughts were getting to me, by the time 4th period came I wasn't sure if I could go any longer without bursting into tears but I swore to wear a smile today because I knew how much it broke Aubreys heart to see me upset which had been happening far to often.

The final bell rang and I rushed to get out of the door but right as I was about to leave the doorway I heard Felix trying to get my attention but I knew if I spoke to him I would cry so I continued to speed out the door. It was a few hours after I got home and I was just laying on my bed and staring at the roof trying to clear my head, then the familiar buzz of a notification from my phone sounded.

Instagram dm's

Felix:
hey y/n are you feeling ok? You've been pretty distant all day and you just don't seem like yourself.

:y/n Yeah I'm alright I'm just tired I guess but there's nothing to worry about :)

Felix:
Are you sure? You can talk to me cutie ;)
:Y/n
Hey hold on a second did you just call me cuteee ahaha.

Felix:
Ahahah shut it and don't try to change the subject on me cutie.
:y/n
teheh you just did it again :), but seriously I'm fine.

Felix:
Ok, whatever you say but I will get you to open up eventually cutie xx

:y/n
Fine by me ;).

End of dm's

I gently put my phone back down beside me where it was charging and lightly giggled to myself , dam this boy really do me making me blush. I sighed and started to relax thinking about how caring Felix seemed to be today and how the only other guy to have shown he cared about me was Calvin, soon enough my thoughts were turning into a dream as I slowly drifted off to sleep. Wait am I a simp?