Olivia ,
No matter how hard I try I just can't with you and I've told you how I feel and how affect me and it's like you don't care and you keep piling crap up until I snap on you and then you look crazy when I yell at you and I get upset and I was trying to be nice before and spare your feelings but at this point I just don't care anymore you are rude and disrespectful towards me and I am fed up like all I want to know is what did I do to you that made you resent me so much because I try and I try and I try but it's like nope I want to have a good relationship with you I want you to like me I want us to be close but you just are always wretched and horrible and you look at me like I'm lower than you like I'm dirty and worthless when all I do is try with you I am trying to take care of you and do as our parents have told me and be a role model and keep you out of trouble and I get that I'm not always the most responsible but when I'm asking you not do do something because it will definitely get us in trouble I expect you to listen to me and at this point I don't even care anymore you don't love me you don't want me to be your sister fine I don't care anymore because I'm done saving your butt and covering for you do do whatever get in trouble because you just won't be my problem anymore I don't have to deal with you you aren't my obligation so for real if you really don't want me to be here just say so
I understand that you are upset but this is what I feel all the freaking time you have no idea how much you hurt me and then you make me snap and you make me feel like I'm the wrong one when we are both wrong like at this point I DON'T CARE I DONT YOU CAN CRY BECAUSE WHEN IM HURTING YOU DONT CARE AND YOUVE NEVER CARED ABOUT ME I'M TRYING TO BE THERE FOR YOU AND ALL YOU DO IS HURT ME YOU HAVE NO CONCERN FOR MY FEELINGS BUT I AM AWAYS THERE TO CARE ABOUT YOURS AND THAT IS WHATS REALLY NOT FAIR THAT YOU GET TO TREAT ME LIKE AND IM SUPPOSED TO PUT YOU ON A PEDESTAL WELL IM NOT GONNA
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Random writing 2020
PoetryI don't even know I just like to write instead of expressing my felling so its about to get mad confusing but also not really XOXO ~~ Cam
