Is It Real? (Jaythan/The Wanted Fanfic)

Chapter 11

Jay's POV

When me and Nathan finally got to our house, Tom's car is on the driveway.

"Where were you guys?" Tom asked as soon we got inside. He looked at the bag I was holding. "What's that?" he pointed at it.

"Me and Nath went to do graffiti" I say "Well, actually me. Nathan was too scared"

"Was not!" Nathan whined.

"Really? Where?" Max asked.

"I see you're home Max" I say to change the subject. "I'm guessing you didn't get laid"

"Nope, and he didn't get drunk either" Siva said.

"We'll, what happened?"

Siva started to explain everything. Basically, Max had a chick all over him. He accidentally called her the wrong name. Johanna. Yes. Johanna. That idiot.

"Fail!" Nathan joked.

"I'm gonna sleep. Fuck you guys" Max said as he went upstairs to his room. "I'm gonna go with 'em" Tom said and followed Max.

Siva looked seductively at me and Nathan.

"So," he said and crossed his arms "What did we miss?"

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Anything new?" he smirked.

"No" "Yes" me and Nath said at the same time. We both look quickly at each other.

"I'm guessing something did happen" Siva spoke.

"Nothing happened" I gave him a death glare. Nath sighed.

"I know Siva knows, Jay."

"What?" me and Siva said.

"Well I figured it out" he scratched his head.

"You knew about Jay's plan right?" he said to Siva.

"It wasn't really a plan Nath." I spoke. Nathan is still looking at Siva; ignoring me.

"Did you?"

Siva nodded. "Well, yes. Are you mad?" Nathan shook his head and looked at the floor. "No, no. I'm just putting things together" he said quietly. "I told you to forget about this" I told him.

Nathan looked up and looked me in the eyes. "How can I, Jay? One of my best friends in love with me? And one that already knew and didn't tell me!" he motioned his hand to Siva. "I thought you said you aren't mad!" Siva snapped. "Well I guess I am, Seev! I thought we tell each other everything?" He whispered the last part and shook his head.

"It wasn't his choice to tell you!" I said. "I told him not to. Why are you getting angry?"

"I don't know.." he mumbled. "It feels like everyone has betrayed me"

It looks like he's about to tear up.

"A lot has happened" he said softly.

I looked down. He's still has feelings for his ex and Johanna hates him now. It wasn't the right time to tell him. I'm sort of putting pressure on him and confusion in his head.

Siva walked up to Nathan and touched his shoulder.

"You still have us Nath" he said. "Don't be such a baby.." he chuckled.

Nathan's lips turned to a crooked smile. "I'm sorry" he said as he leaned on the couch. "I'm over reacting"

Siva told us he's gonna sleep. We said goodnight and I just stayed in the living room couch and watched TV. While Nathan went to the kitchen and grabbed a cuppa. I put the bag of spray cans next to the couch I sat in. I'm not really watching TV. When the TV is on, it just makes me think. Nathan walked in with the cuppa in his hand. "Night Bird" he said and went to the stairs.

"Night"

I can hear Nathan walking up but then he came down again. I faced the stairs and there he is coming up to me.

"Look Jay, I have to say this" he said.

I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. "What?"

He sighed and tap his finger on his cuppa. "You're like one of my best friends and that's probably the only way I see you as"

I nodded. I know this will happen. I knew he will never feel the same but I told him anyway and now I feel stupid.

"I understand" I said.

Nathan looked at his cuppa.

"But, I'm not sure either" he mumbled. "I also see you...differently, only a little different from the other guys"

I honestly don't know what that meant. All I can say is, "Ok" and nod. Nathan spread his lips, not into a smile but like a straight line. "Goodnight" and he walked quickly up the stairs.

I raised my eyebrow and watched him go up. I looked at the TV screen and turned it off. And stared into the darkness until I fell asleep.