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murphy: hi guys
octavia: hey
raven: hey- i'm awake
murphy: it's fine i can stay with her
octavia: murphy- clarke wouldn't like the fact that you haven't slept or eaten in 2 days.
murphy: who knows- hey how about you ask her?
murphy: oh right
murphy: You fucking can't because I wasn't there to protect her.
raven: i'm bringing fucking zaxby's and you're gonna fuckin eat it
bellamy: hey i'm in the elevator
Murphy drug his eyes up from his phone and looked at his sister.
He felt anxiety pool in his stomach.
Murphy stood up, picking up the chair and placing it next to Clarke's bed.
He sat back down.
Murphy glanced down at her hand.
Her palm was facing upward.
An IV was inserted into her wrist.
It hid the faded scars on her wrist.
The scars were very close together.
Murphy remembered when they were first cut into there.
He gently placed his hand in her's.
Murphy felt himself swallow the lump in his throat as he intertwined his finger's with her's
He saw a tear fall from his eye, landing on the white sheets.
The sheets absorb it quickly.
"Hey." Bellamy called out.
Murphy rubbed his eyes embarrassedly.
"Sorry." He laughed weakly.
Bellamy grabbed a chair, placing it on the other side of her bed.
"It's fine." Bellamy said, sitting down.
Murphy rubbed his eyes.
It was the second day she was in the hospital.
Abby needed to show up or the state would put Clarke and Murphy into foster care.
"Raven and Octavia are on the way, and Jasper and Monty are preparing for her to come home."
What if she doesn't come home?
What if she slipped away while Murphy was gone?
Murphy just nodded.
"So, I'm guessing you canceled that two week trip?" Murphy asked.
Bellamy thought of what he should say.
"No.." He mumbled.
Murphy furrowed his eyebrows.
"You're not thinking about going on it, right?!" He asked, quickly.
Bellamy opened his mouth- beginning to say something.
Murphy didn't even give him the chance.
He stood up quickly.
"You're girlfriend is in the hospital- could possibly die.. and you are thinking about going out of state. What if she dies while you're gone huh?! What if she wakes up?! The last memory she has of you was that you told her that you were leaving for two whole weeks. And if she wakes up and you're not here.. I have no doubt that she will believe you don't love her." Murphy exclaimed.
Guilt washed over Bellamy.
An unreadable expression rubbed across his face.
"Shit.." Murphy mumbled.
He turned around quickly.
"God I'm an asshole. I'm sorry." He laughed weakly.
Bellamy stood up.
"You're not an asshole, Murphy. You haven't slept in two day and you're worried about Clarke." Bellamy stated.
Bellamy stared at the back of Murphy's head.
Murphy stayed quiet.
"Hey bitches!!" Raven called out, walking in with a few Zaxby's bags in her hand.
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monty: hey jasp
jasper: hey monty
monty: ily 👊
jasper: ilyt 👊👊
octavia: i'm abt to wake this bitch up myself
bellamy: i don't think that's how it works but go off—
jasper: she is a drug induced coma, technically it would work- but the only reason that she is in a coma is to prevent her brain from swelling so
raven: you just went full on smart on us tf
murphy: plus it's best if she is unconscious- it would be painful if she wasn't.
raven: good point
octavia: brb
monty: we're back bitches
octavia: that's my mf line
bellamy: lmao
octavia: uh- abby's here..
Murphy looked up from his phone.
Everyone else was looking at him.
Murphy got up, walking out of the door.
And sure enough, Abby was standing there talking to the doctor.
"God, this is gonna cost fortune." Abby complained.
Murphy caught Abby's attention.
Abby smirked.
"I would what she'll do to pay me back." Abby said, looking at Murphy.
That comment made Murphy sick to his stomach.
The doctor just laughed, presuming it was a joke.
The other's had followed Murphy out.
Murphy ran back into the room, and into the bathroom.
Raven followed.
He quickly threw up in the toilet, and flushed it.
"Hey.. Atleast you ate something." Raven smiled faintly.
Murphy turned to her, smiling weakly back.
"It's not you're fault, y'know?" Raven mumbled.
"It's always my fault." He whispered.
Raven stepped forward quickly, hugging him tightly.
Murphy smiled, hugging back.
COUGH COUGH
i hate myself LMFaO
anyways
i hope you enjoyed this chapter
k bye, ghosts <3
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