A/n... again (: [dont have to read, just somethings i sorta want to admit

489 12 4
                                    

Hi guys, this isn't a very 'me' thing and I didn't want to have many authors notes in this book. But like many people, I'd been questioning myself a lot in quarantine. To spell my out to you guys; I am a she/her who has short, bleached white hair, relatively good at sport but has a shit fitness level, I have a horrific sleep schedule thanks to genes from my mothers side, I prefer jeans and oversized t-shirts over pretty much everything, I love to sew and make clothes, I secretly desperately want to become a race car driver and secretly love cars. I am a crafty person who sometimes does not care how I present myself, even though I care what people think of me, I'm school captain next year (woo), I won dux of my year level 3 years ago and I pretty much don't understand/hate the idea of s*x.

Twas during quarantine when I discovered the term 'asexual'. I googled it. ALOT. Then said to my best friend that I'm thinking I am, then I asked another friend (who is bi and has known for a while) how they sorta knew. I then sat on it for a week and pretty much thought about it every night for hours. And then I came out.

I came out to my friend, and she was supportive and sorta in turn let me know that she was nonbinary now (:
I then told my other friend in our little group, which had actually given her the confidence for her to come out as lesbian to me.
(We now quote that we are the best friendship group ever cause we cover a lot of queer bases. Our reoccurring picnics are very interesting, and one of them said that they apparently always had a feeling I was some degree of queer, she just wasn't sure how much and when I'd admit to it)

I haven't come out to family because I'm not sure if they are for or against the lgbtqa+ community or not, and I don't know what they'll think, and I sorta feel like they don't really need to know.

But the one thing that sorta goes hand in hand with this is that I don't want to kids. I don't wnat to physically create and give birth because for me it doesn't sound worth it. I don't necessarily want them at all. I think if I were by chance going to have them I would adopt but I don't think I will.
I don't hate kids like I'm not pricks to them and I'm generally good with them, I'm just very awkward with interactions, don't really enjoy them and don't understand when people swoon over them.
Only problem is I haven't told my mum yet. And she is VERY for kids. Like lives to comment on everything about how 'well when you grow up and have kids I'm going to tell them' or ' when you grow up and have kids your going to understand'. Like she literally has a degree to work in childcare lol.

I'm sorry about the big rant. I hope it wasn't too boring and pointless for those who chose to read it (:

I will hopefully have a new chapter up before Christmas 🎄😁

Harry Hook x Reader One shots {Happy to accept requests}Where stories live. Discover now