Hurt [[ Sad Deku AU ]]

Please Don't Go

[[ 1 week from that incident ]]

[[ 3rd person Pov ]]

Bakugou and Deku still aren't talking

Mina and kirishima are friends again
And are desperately trying to get them to talk

kirishima apologized to deku , of course he accepted his apology

[[ Now ]]

It was during after school , 2 weeks before Bakugous Party

he was turning 16 , so it was an important party , everyone from class 1A was hosting a surprise birthday

Dekus depression is only getting worse and he's doubting if he'll make it to kacchans birthday

cutting , 1 by 1 as his arms tend to feel numb.

purposely forces himself to injure himself

Until one day

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[[ Dekus Pov ]]

cmon you weakling , push harder!

as I was training , I was wearing a t-shirt and I was training somewhere no one knew I was

my cuts , everything was visible

this is my favourite part of the day

Being able to just feel free

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[[ Todorokis POV ]]

why does he come all the way out here?

I walked up to deku as I was finishing up my walk from the hospital and noticed his green glows

" hey midoriya "

I say as I walk up to him

I noticed blood

" Midoriya?! Are you okay!? "

He turned around and saw me

" oh hey Todoroki kun , yeah.. "

" you sure, don't be going over your limit "

" yeah I know "

He says as turning around facing me

" can you pass me that water bottle? "
He points at somewhere beside me

" yeah sure! "

I say as I bend down to grab it

And hand it

but I noticed something

" midoriya? "

" y-yes- "

He says as he looks at his arms and immediately pulls back

" oh uh , thanks for the water uh you can go away now- "

" Izuku. "

He started to tear up

" why do you have so many cuts? "

" .. I tend to hurt myself... "

" don't lie to me. "

" i-I'm sorry Todoroki "

" explain. "

" i-i just hate living , y'know. Kacchan makes it so much worse now that he's avoiding me.. my heart feels as if it breaks everytime he walks past me , knowing I messed us up. "

" i- izuku- "

" and the thing is , I can't be a hero , I'm so weak and useless , like look at me , I'm bleeding from doing a few hours of training "

" I'm sorry but , HOURS!? Your going too far. You either come with me , and your gonna go rest or I will call a hero or the police and report self harm. "

" ... just a few- "

" no. "

" fine "

He says as he puts his sweater back on and grabs his things

I was in so much shock

all that pain , and sadness was just developing

and I couldn't protect him.

He's been living with this

And I've been just.. it's my fault why him and Bakugou aren't talking.. I should've just left them alone.

" m-midoriya.. "

" what.. "

" how long? "

" ...4 years? 3.. i don't know. "

Suddenly guilt hit my heart even more , I took his only person who was always there for him

just cause I was jealous..