Angel- lil peep

10

Tracy

I walked out onto the balcony closing the sliding door behind me

I sat on the metal chair that was in the corner of the balcony with a metal table in front like a set of the two

I held my phone in my hands for a couple of seconds debating whether or not i should call gus, i know i have to call him i just don't know what i'm meant to say to him

It's the first time speaking to him in nearly over a year as i hadn't spoke to him for nearly a year the first time and now I haven't spoke to him for a couple of months

When i first found out that gus had died my world froze, i panicked i didn't know what to do. I thought it was a massive joke hence why i tweeted the things i tweeted and said the things i did

But this time it's going to be different and gus isn't going to die i'll make sure of it, i'll put everything in me to make sure he doesn't die and he makes it here for next year

I scrolled through my contacts eventually landing on his wasting no time pressing the call button

It rang a couple of times before someone picked up, it stayed silent so i began to talk

"Gus" i mumbled hearing alot of ruffling going on at the other end of the phone as if someone was just sitting up from laying down

"Tracy?" Gus said making me smile hearing him say my name for the first time in while the only other time i've heard him say my name is when i would watch videos of us over

Tears were forming at my eyes at the thought of losing him again

"I miss you bro, so much" i mumbled out trying not to let the tears fall out

"Bro are you crying" he laughed

"Nah, i need to speak to you" i said wiping the tears that had fell

"What about" he said serious

"Don't worry i just need to see you"

"Um sure but i'm kinda on tour can it wait until after?" The background noise was starting to build up meaning people were filling into the room that he was in

"No!" I nearly shouted "I mean it's quite important so maybe i could drop by your show tomorrow night?"

"Um sure but my managers here and i know what you two are like" he laughed

"Nah it'll be fine"

"Yo peep who you on the phone to?" Someone shouted in the background

"Tracy" he said

"Fuck him" the other person said in the background making my smile drop

"Can i call you back?" Gus said

"Yeah course" i said before ending the phone call

I stood up and walked to the edge of the balcony leaning over it resting my head between my arms which were hanging over the edge

I know he's not going to call me back he'll get high and forget about our conversation

I turn back around and walk into the room to see cleo had just got off the phone

I walked over to her and sat on the edge of the bed putting my head in between my arms resting on my knees, a casual pose for me i guess recently

"What did he say" cleo's voice rung out next to me and she nudged herself close to me on the edge of the bed

"He said he'll phone me back because everyone came onto the bus and were distracting him i guess" i said running my hand over my dreaded hair

"Oh well hopefully he won't forget and he'll call you back" she smiled picking up the menu which was next to her

"What do you want to eat" she asked handing me the menu

We ordered some pasta and it came as room service, i felt like royalty i never had this before getting served food and i don't think cleo had it either as we were both quite shocked at how the whole thing worked we were like two old people

We ended up watching a film afterwards, still no call from gus but i checked his instagram and he was live, cleo joined it as he didn't know who she was

He was just chilling in the back of the bus like how he used to, he was on xans i could tell he wasn't as talkative as he usually was which made me sad.