Angel- lil peep

4

Cleo

It was now 4 in the afternoon and we had just arrived at the hotel that our parents had organised, and they were right it was only 10 minutes away from the venue or even less than that i think. Jas was in the shower and i was sat on the bed scrolling through instagram.

Once jas had came out the shower i got in, i wash my hair and my body and did everything i needed to do. I straightened my hair and did my makeup to see the time was now 6 and we only had 45 minutes because tracy said that we had to be there 15 minutes before to go backstage.

I put my dress on and took a couple of pictures to upload to instagram later.

After Jas and i were ready we left the hotel and made our way to the venue, we didn't take my car as it wasn't that far and i couldn't be bothered to find any parking.

We made it to the venue after a short walk down the street, there was already a line down the side of the building.

We walked around the building until we reached the back door where the tour bus was parked. A group of people were stood there most of the smoking and with plastic cups in their hands

We walked up to them, jas infront and me behind her

"Hey we met tracy earlier and he told us to come here" they're conversations stopped and the all turned to look at us.

Tracy emerged from the small of crowd of people who were gathered around the back door

"Nah it's chill guys they're with me" tracy said walking towards us everyone nodded and made way for us so we could walk through the door

He led us to backstage and to his dressing room well i think it was his dressing him all of his stuff was in it. The room had two couch's in, one of them was filled up with people smoking and drinking

"Sit down, do you want a drink?" Tracy asked signalling down at the couch as he walked over to the small table in the corner with bottles of alcohol on top with plastic cups.

"Yes please" we both said at the same time, he nodded and poured out three cups of the brown liquor.

Tracy walked back over to us and sat down on the couch next to me and Jas on the other side. He pulled out a small bag of white powder out of his pocket.

"Do you want some" he looked over to me and i shook my head. Jas was too busy having a conversation with a boy sat on the other couch i think it was lil raven.

I looked over to jas then back to tracy who was lining up the coke on the glass tablet in front of him

"Actually can i have some"

He lifted his head up and nodded before splitting and lining up two lines. He rolled up a ten dollar bill before using it to snort up one line.

He passed me the rolled up ten dollar bill, i looked over to Jas who was still in a conversation with raven

"Does she not know?" He asked as i snorted the last line i shook my head lifting up my head wiping the white residue from under neath my nose

"No, she doesn't like it when i do coke so i told her i stopped"

"You a bad girl then" he winked making me laugh and nod my head

We talked for a bit longer before he had to go on stage, his dressing room emptied out on to the stage as everyone joined him on the stage.

After the show we all flooded back into his dressing room i walked behind tracy next to jas and cold hart

I sat back down on the couch sitting back in the place that i was sat in before the show and jas sat next to me.

"Is anyone sat here" i looked up to see cold hart pointing down at the seat that was next to me that tracy was sat in before

"Oh tracy was sat here before the show but I don't know where he's gone" i said looking around the room to see everyone but him there

"Oh yeah he kinda disappears after his shows now" he says inhaling the joint in his hand.

"Oh do you not think someone should go and look for him"

He shook his head "no one usually does but you can if u want, be my guest"

I stood up and walked out of the dressing room, turning corners and peaking my head through door to see if he was in there.

I ended up at the back door where we walked through at the start of the night it was slightly opened and someone was stood on the otherside

"Bro i miss you so much" a sob escaped from their mouth "i'm sorry I wasn't there, things could of went differently" it was tracy he broke down crying

I peaked my head round the corner to see tracy looking up at the sky as he slid down the wall.

"I promise imma keep you alive bro not physically but imma make sure everyone knows who you are in the future"

He's talking to gus

I leaned against the door a bit more putting more pressure on the fire exit door making it fly open and tracys eyes to land on me.

"What are you doing" his voice cracked his glossy eyes looking up at me

"Uh- i came looking for you, i wanted to make sure you were okay" i said walking out of the door so i was now infront of him

"I'm fine i just needed a minute to myself thats all" he said dropping his head between his legs trying to hide the tears running down his cheeks.

I was now sat next to him against the wall resting my head against the wall

"I miss him so much, i just wanna go back in time" he mumbled not lifting his head

"I know i do aswell, i never met him but he's been there for me"

"I wish i could go back in time to go back onto that bus and tell them, or just to see him one more time his smile or to at least warn him" tracy said lifting his head up smiling with tears in his eyes.

I opened my arms and gave him a hug he squeezed me tightly and cried into my shoulder.

"Thank you" he smiled pulling away from the hug

"It's okay" i smiled

We stood up and walked back inside to join everyone.

Oh my god i know i keep on repeating this but i hope you understand this and it makes sense.

If it doesn't it will soon i promise 💖