Dr. Knowles

Let's Start Over

She glanced at me before leaning into my arms. I closed my eyes and hoped every thing would get better.

Alright so today bey is getting released and I'm so excited. I'm taking her up to a place close to my house so if she ever needs me I'll be close by. Its a nice pent with no walls just windows, well the exclusion of the bathroom and two walls in the bedroom just in case we fuc-- chilling and she doesn't anyone to be looking at us , but I don't know how they would since were up like 30 stories. Anywho, things have been going good. Were still not official which is killing me right now. We've definitely starting fresh. I mean fresh fresh. I can't even kiss her.

I arrived at the hospital and I walk in to see her and Michael chatting like old friends. I mean they are but still she honestly doesn't remember all the shit this nigga put her through. I walked in and cleared my throat.

"Hey Shawn." Bey got out if bed and gave me nice long hug.

"Hey Bey Bey. You ready? "

"Well actually me and Michael were going to head out. He wants to work things out and I think it would be good if we did."

"You not serious are you? Do you not remember what this nigga did? He cheated, beat you and treated you like crap. How can you forgive that?"

"Well that's the thing. I don't remember any of that happening so I only have your word to take against his. No offense but I've known him way longer than you and I trust him more. Yea he's done some things but I've seen worse. I love him Shawn. Its not easy letting go. We've been through so much. I'm sorry."

"Bey you can't be serious baby."

"Well she is so get to stepping" Michael smiled with this real cocky look like he just won and its true he did.

"So what about us? You just gonna leave me like that?"

" I need time to figure this all out please, right now I just need someone who is familiar to me and that's what Michael is here for."

"I'm not about to be your sloppy seconds so take all the time you need. I'm always going to be here if you need me but just know he's not what he seems." 

"I'll figure it out Ok?  And You're not sloppy seconds. I just need time. Understand where I'm coming from. I i know that you're a close friend of mine but just like i cant remember what he's done. I cant remember what you've done. Michael is pretty much the only familiar person in my life right now that I remember enough to go with him. I know I said I'll go on a date but I think me and Michael getting back together would be best for me. Please understand."

"Alright bey. If anything happens. I mean anything. You can call me alright?"

"Ok" bey flashed me a sincere smile and I walked out I turned to look back at her and her and Michael kissed and hugged. He swung her around and she laughed aloud. Damn I Was going to miss her.

Bey POV.

Shown left and I felt so bad. I wish I could understand how he feels but I honestly cant remember what we had. Michael and  I talked and he told me it was a one time deal because he was drunk and he never hit me after that and as far as charting goes he said he hasn't but Erica tries to tempt him and i can believe that. I know me and Michael have been having some rough times but hopefully everything will get better. I still have hope for us. I just hope he doesn't make me second guess my choice.

I checked out the hospital and Michael drive me home. I was so ready to go back. Michael grabbed my bags and I walked into my loft. Everything seemed pretty much the same except a lot of things are missing.