Secret | (Merder)

Appointment

I went into work hoping Derek wouldn't ask me what's wrong, but I know he was going to.

Derek put away his phone, "Hey, are you sure you are okay?"

I looked at him in his beautiful blue eyes. They were full of worry, "I am fine Derek!" Derek nodded and then went to check on a patient. I had an appointment today, it is a check up for my D&C I had 3 weeks ago. Bailey said she will take my patients for the time being. So, I grabbed my tablet, and handed it to her, "Here Bailey, bed 1263 already coded twice so keep an eye out."

"Okay Grey," Bailey responded and then went to check on my patients.

I went to go to the OB/GYN wing, but then I saw Cristina. She started walking with me, "Are you going to tell Derek about this?" I was thinking, "I honestly don't know. It is so hard to tell people about this!" Cristina rubbed my back then headed downstairs. I talked to the nurses who handed me a packet. I filled out forms, and submitted them to the nurse. I then went to sit in the waiting area. I saw Derek in one of the rooms from where I was sitting. I think a baby had a brain tumor or something. I saw him walking out of the room, and he stopped dead in his tracks. He looked worried. He started to say my name, but got interrupted.

"Dr. Meredith Grey? The OB will see you now." the nurse said. I saw Derek just standing there staring at me. He knew I had something to hide. I them went in the exam room following the nurse. Luckily, he didn't come in the exam room with me. I changed into a gown, and the doctor came in. I propped my legs on the stirrups. The nurse finally finished up, "You are doing great! Keep resting and take some antibiotics. You have been bleeding a little more than usual." I nodded and exited the exam room with a proscription for antibiotics in my hand. I see Derek in the waiting area of the OB/GYN. Derek is reading a newspaper, then he looks up and sees me. I walk so fast out of the OB/GYN wing, it is hard for Derek to catch up. I ran into the parking lot.

Derek shouts, "Meredith! Meredith!" I completely ignore him, and run to my car. I get in and lock the door. I start balling my eyes out. How can I tell Derek? He will hate me forever! He will probably break up with me. I just... I just can not tell him. I look out of the driver's side window, and see Derek running to my car. Derek approaches the driver side door. He pulls on the door handle, but it doesn't open. He knocks on the driver side window, "Mer, Mer... please! Tell me what is wrong! Please..." Derek put his hand up to the window, and he started crying, "please Mer!" Derek felt like he did something wrong, and I've been just ignoring him. I just can't tell him! I hit my head on the steering wheel, and started crying harder than I usually cry. Derek's eyes are red with a puzzled look.

"Mer... come out of the car so I can hug you!" Derek shouted. I looked up and unlocked the door. I then got out and grabbed onto Derek. I was holding him so tight while crying I didn't want to let go. Derek hugged back and whispered, "it's okay Mer... just tell me." My grip stopped. I walked away, "I'm sorry Derek I just... just can't tell you."  Derek's face wiped with worry.

Derek's P.O.V.

All I want to know is what is going on with Mer.

To be continued... (in Derek's P.O.V.)