unapproachable ➢ 𝘵. 𝘰𝘪𝘬𝘢𝘸𝘢

chapter sixty seven

'unapproachable.'

i never understood why i was given that title. i mean, yeah, i can be a bitch someti- all the time.. but that doesn't mean i'm completely rude. clearly, oikawa approached me without a problem.

wait. if oikawa never bugged me on my first day, would i even still be going aoba johsai? if he never annoyed me to a great extent, would we even be a thing? would i have become close with the other third years? would i be the same 'chinami-chan' without oikawa..? shit.

why am i overthinking in a dream?

am i dreaming? wait-

i quickly awaken and shoot up from being oikawa's little spoon, sitting with my legs crossed in somewhat shock as tears start forming in my eyes.

"ch..chinami-chan..? are you okay.." oikawa questions while rubbing his eyes, yawning. i look over my shoulder, back to oikawa before quickly crawling onto him and hiding my face in his chest so he can't see me cry like a little bitch. he quickly sits up with me in his lap and latched around his body.

"hey, hey, what's wrong? i-i'm right here, talk to me.."

i sob into oikawa's chest while he rubs my back. "i- tooru-.."

oikawa uses his free hand to run his fingers through my hair. "it's okay, baby. take your time.."

i lift my head from his chest, looking into his eyes while mine are puffy. he gives me a quick, soft kiss on my nose before i sniffle.

"tooru, can you.. can you also promise not to leave me, too..?"

oikawa cups my face in his hands, squishing my cheeks before kissing me. "i will never leave you, chinami-chan. i mean, i haven't left you since the first day i saw you!" he laughs.

i wrap my arms around his neck and place my head in the crook of his neck.

oikawa slowly gets up from his bed, going over to his closet. "let's go outside.."

"tooru, i- it's cold outside, and late."

"that's why i'm giving you my sweater!" oikawa bends down and sets me on the floor. i unlatch myself from him and adjust the shirt of his i'm wearing while he goes into his closet, bringing out a hoodie with his last name and volleyball jersey number printed in bold on the back.

"put it on, put it on!"

"why do you want to go outside..?" i question in confusion while slipping into the sweater as oikawa also grabs a blanket from his closet.

"you'll see!" he holds his hand out to me. i interlock my fingers with his before he pulls me out of his room, down the stairs, all throughout the house, and to his backyard. he lays the blanket down on the snow and sits, his legs stretched out.

"come, i wanna show you something." oikawa opens an arm to me. i step onto the blanket and sit next to oikawa, my knees against my chest as he pulls me closer.

ohh.

stargazing.

"okay, so that's the moon, obviously. then there's spica.." oikawa points up, his finger guiding my eyes across the night sky, "spica is a double star, pretty cool, right? it's also the brightest star in the virgo constellation- one of the brightest stars in general."

oikawa goes on and on about the stars visible to the naked eye. i end up paying more attention to him talking than his educational viewing.

"and- chinami-chan, are you paying attention?"

i quickly snap out of my trance to see oikawa's eyes piercing into my soul.

"were you checking me out~?" oikawa questions while slightly scrunching his nose, a small smile upon his lips. i shake my head in embarrassment before looking back to the sky.

"j-just shut up.. tell me more about stars."

"fiiiine." oikawa sighs with a chuckle, then proceeds to do as i said, telling me more information about the stars in tonight's sky.

i like this, more than i thought.

just oikawa and i, under the night sky.

i won't break his promise.. i hope he doesn't break it either. i don't want to lose this. i mean this in the least psycho way.. i don't want to lose oikawa, ever.. he's one of the only guys i trust after everything that happened with my parents.

"chinami-chan, why're you crying?" oikawa questions as i begin to zone out again. i'm crying? again..?

i shrug. oikawa pulls me into his chest after carefully wiping away my tears and lays on the blanket, bringing me down with him and continuing to ramble about the stars.

"okay, it's getting late.. we sh-" i stop talking as i hear a soft, quiet snore coming from chinami. aww, she fell asleep in my arms! so cute~~

enough admiring her beauty, i have to bring her inside. wait- what if she catches hypothermia?! oh no, oh no, i have to hurry. okay.

i carefully place her down on the blanket before getting up, adjusting my clothes before figuring out what the best way to carry her is.

bridal style it is. i bend down and slowly slip my hands under chinami, picking her up and holding her in the most comfortable way i can. sorry blanket, you're gonna have to stay here. chinami-chan is more important!

i head back into my house, and up to my room, placing chinami on my bed before i snuggle up right next to her. i pull the blanket over us, making sure that it's not covering her face. slipping my arms around her waist and pulling her closer, i doze off in upmost content.

man, i love her so much.