𝐁𝐋𝐔𝐄 𝐊𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐀𝐌𝐀.

invisible blue.

weeks passed. kageyama was like a robot. he never attended volleyball practice anymore. he never interacted with anyone. even if they tried like yachi or yamaguchi, even tsukishima, he would just ignore them. he would always be at the rooftop of the school. stare into nothingness. everyday was a cloudy day. was it still april? was it ever april?

in lunch breaks when he would walk to the rooftop, he would look down and see kenmas small figure coming to karasuno to visit shoyo.
he always had a blush on his face.

when he would go buy milk, he would see shoyo surrounded by a flock of girls and boys with kenma by his side. what can he say, shoyo was still popular. no one really knew of kageyama and shoyos relationship and never gave it much thought.

he felt so alone.

what he hated the most was the fact shoyo would still stare at him.

he would try to ignore him. shoyo stared. he didn't know if it was a pity expression or a calculating one. or maybe a smug one.

you cheated on me, why are you still eyeing me.

kenma was more confident now.
it's no surprise. shoyo can make anyone confident. he made kageyama confident in bed and at school. kenma kissed him in public, hugged him, for fuck sake, sat on his lap.

kageyama and shoyo only did that in private.

kageyama had a spare room in his house so shoyo migrated there. when kageyama was locked in his room or away, kenma was over.

need i explain more?

it hurt. it's hurt so bad.

shoyo was so addicting.

he was sexy, flirtatious, hyper.

but so fucking sweet and caring. a ball of sunshine.

and he just left kageyama tobios life just like that.

every time he would enter the volleyball court, kenma and shoyo were there, exchanging kisses, laughs, giggles. kenma would fucking set for him and shoyo would compliment him.

he was sick of the volleyball court now.
he couldn't return to it.

his eyes were dull, almost looked grey.
hair longer now and slightly messy.

what's worse is that kenma would captivate everyone. and everyone slowly turned away from kageyama.

sure, he looked great but always kept his long hair covering his face. and tobio wasn't really one to converse.

he wondered if someone had spread rumors on kageyama because it seemed some people were even avoiding him. or maybe they just want a good reputation.

the god now looked like just a quiet kid.

kenma was a great setter. he quickly filled in kageyamas spot at lunch and everyone forgot about him.

kageyama felt so invisible.

the beautiful blue was dulled.

he started to feel that loneliness. that same loneliness he held in middle school.

everything was coming back.

it's so scary.

save me.

save me, anyone.

it's so cold.

shoyo.

come back.

i can't breathe.

come back.

come back.

don't leave me alone.

please.

shoyo—

end of invisible blue.

writers note: i want to make it more painful but i don't know how.