Weirdo //h.s. [Editing]

[30] Last I love you's?

Songs I listened to while writing this chapter:
-Night Changes- One Direction
-Come Back Down- Danny Fernandes
-Adore You-Miley Cyrus
-Criminal-Ash Koley
-Happy Ending-Avril Lavigne

Sydney

"...Not guilty."

Those two words make my heart burst with happiness as tears of joy spill down my cheeks. I actually thought that he was done for, that this wouldn't work out the way it was supposed to, but the fact that it did makes my whole life so much better. I can go on and live happily knowing that Harry is okay and he is out there living his life to the fullest also. He doesn't have to suffer for his uncle's mistakes and he can be normal again.

Harry jumps up from his seat and shouts out of happiness as the guards go over to him and unlock his hand cuffs. He throws his arms around his lawyer as soon as his hands are free and smiles from ear to ear. I have never seen him look so happy before and I can honestly say that I may not have been this happy before either. I love Harry, and witnessing this moment with him warms my heart. Everyone in the room claps and I hear some cheers of happiness, although I also hear a few grunts of annoyance from those who had hoped he would be proven guilty. My mother and father seem at bay, not exactly happy but definitely not overly angry. I suppose they didn't really mind how this turned out, although I know that they were most likely hoping for the other possibility more.

The judge hits her gavel on the wood twice and everyone settles down and becomes quiet once again. She stays silent for a moment as she reads over some files on her desk and looks back and forth between Harry and Mike a few times. She then looks over everyone in the jury before looking through the crowd, taking in everybody's expressions. Finally, her eyes land on me for a moment and he gives me a small smile, taking in my happy state about the outcome of today. Then, after several minutes, she begins to speak.

"Harry Styles is free to be released with no blemishes on his record. Mike styles is sentenced to fifteen years in prison for the abduction of Sydney Cane and the attempted murder of both Sydney Cane and Harry Styles. No bail and no parol are to be set. Case dismissed." She bangs the gavel once more before standing up and leaving the room through the big wooden doors again.

The guards grab ahold of Mike and drag him through the doors also, his lawyer following close behind. The jury clear out also, and then everyone else starts to exit as well. My mom and dad turn to me and they both smile kindly. My mother pats my knee before she speaks.

"I am happy for the both of you, I may not be proud of you being with him, but I am happy he got the outcome he deserves." She smiles lightly and pulls me into a hug.

My father stands in front of me with an unreadable look on his face. He bends over to hug me and sighs once he stands back up straight. "I can't say that I am happy he is getting off free because in all honesty, I'm not. But, as much as I do not approve of the two of you, I expect you to do whatever makes you happy." He nods shortly and I smile up at him. I didn't think he would come around, and he still isn't fully there, but he is close enough for now. I can't ask him for anything more at the moment considering the circumstances.

They both give me one last hug and a smile before they leave through the doors, telling me they will wait in the car while I talk to Harry. I stand up when I see him making his way toward me with the biggest smile I have ever seen. He stops walking a few feet away from me to look me over for a minute. We just stare at each other until suddenly, we rush to one another and he throws his arms around me, lifting me off the ground a few inches and burry his face into the side of my neck. I cry on to his shoulder and then he sets me down, wiping the tears from my face.

"I love you so fucking much." He grunts and grabs hold of my face, smashing his mouth into mine. I pull away after a few minutes and look at him with pain visible in my expression.

"I love you too, Harry." I smile but my smile no longer meets my mood.

I love him so much, I really do, but I cannot allow myself to be with him. I know I am being selfish, but I can't live my life with him any longer. I need to move on from this, I need to move on and forget about everything that has happened. I can't keep being reminded of it everyday when I see him and being with him will not allow me to forget. Being around my mother will already be too much to handle when it comes to remembering, and I will not be able to go through life being reminded of this all the time. I have to live a normal life like I want to, and being with my "kidnapper" is not the best way to do so. I refuse to tell everyone that I met my boyfriend when he kidnapped me. If we were to ever get married, I would have to tell people that my husband almost went to jail for what he did to me. If we ever were to have kids, I would also have to explain it all to them. I just couldn't bring myself to do that.

"I'm free now, baby. We can be together, do whatever we want, live our lives." He grins widely and pulls me into another bone crushing hug. I want to be happy, I am happy for him, but I can't be happy for what I am about to do.

"Harry.." I pull away and look at him as more tears fall, these ones not caused by being happy.

"What is it, baby?" He asks as concern crosses his features. He can now see that I am no longer happy, but the exact opposite.

"Harry, I love you so much, believe me I do, but I can't.. I can't do this." I gesture between us.

"What? What do you mean?" I can tell that he is starting to panic slightly, and I know that I need to explain this and get out as fast as I can before he sees me completely fall apart.

"I can't stay with you, Harry, I can't." I shake my head before continuing. "I want to so much, and I know that you wont understand me when I say this, but I can't allow myself to live my life the way it will go if we are together. I need to move on from this event and create a normal future for myself in order to forget everything that has happened. I cannot keep dwelling on the past and that is exactly what I will do if I stay with you." I blink the tears away but more just continue to flow as Harry's eyes start to fill up as well.

"No, Sydney, you don't mean this. We have been through so much together and we can get through more together. We love each other, we can't just walk away from it all now." He shakes his head as he starts to cry, grabbing hold of my hands.

"I am sorry, Harry. I can't disappoint everyone, especially my family. No one understands me when I tell them that I love you, no one gets it when I say I want to be with you, and no one wants me to be with you. I want to, I really do because I love you with all my heart, but it would be best for the both of us if we just say goodbye and move on with our lives." I sigh and pull my hands out of his grasp.

"Who cares what everyone else wants?!" He shouts and I flinch away. "This is not about your family or your friends or anyone else in this shit town! This is about you and I, and that is what matters. And don't you ever fucking tell me that I am better off without you, don't you ever tell me that it will be better for me to just move on! Nothing, absolutely fucking nothing will be better if you aren't with me, not after everything we have gone through, not after all we have done for each other! I love you with everything I have and I cannot just watch you walk away from me to move on with your life!" He yells and grabs my face.

"Baby please, I love you." He begs as he shakes violently from his tears.

"I love you with all my heart, Harry, but I need to move on, and so do you." I sob quietly as I look into his eyes deeply. I kiss his lips passionately one last time before walking out the court house doors. I leave him behind while he stands there begging for me to turn around, but I don't.. I can't.. I wont.

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Please don't hate me for this chapter. But at least Harry is leaving innocent though, am I right? No? Ok. Sorry for this guys but it's always been apart of the plan. I was thinking about just ending the book here but I decided against it, so at least thank me for that. Two more chappies left! Comment your thoughts and vote. Thank you all xx