25th March 2015. The day which will go down as one of the darkest days in history. Hearts were broken and tears were shed. Zayn thought that he had done a good thing by leaving the band. But seeing the people's reactions, he started to doubt his decision. Was leaving the band a good choice? Was his health and happiness more important than that of the people? Will people ever love him again? What about the boys? What will happen to his career? Will anyone sign him into their record label? Will Simon let him by so easily? Join Zayn in his journey of existence. This is a story where hearts will be broken but also mended. A story where a man tries to leave his past and gain a name for himself. A story where a man strives for individuality. But most of all, a story where a member of the biggest band on the planet, strives to become himself again. Trigger warning: There will be mentions of anxiety, depression and also slight mentions of Eating Disorder. Best rankings: #14 in simoncowell #12 in celeblife #143 in eatingdisorder #238 in struggle