"I'm so used to having everything under control, but this time it's uncontrollable. It's taken over my life; I spend endless nights lying awake, hoping and praying that I'll be able to meet him. I can't even eat without wondering if he prefers bananas or apples. It's never been like this, why does it have to be like this now? Why do I have to love him now? The love; It's too strong, and I can't fight it. I've tried, believe me, but I can't stop loving him." started: apr. 11. 2021 finished: apr. 17. 2021