Kakashi didn't think he deserved to live. Everyone always said he was a prodigy, an exceptional ninja among the most skilled of ninjas, yet he still hadn't been able to save anyone. How could he be called a good ninja, be close to what a ninja should be, when he hadn't even been able to protect his comrades? How could he be deserving of life when it was because of him that they died? If only it had been him instead of Obito... If only it had been him instead of Rin... If only it was him instead of her... [Angst ahead] [TW: blood and death]