Not My World (Klance Omegaverse)

Chapter 19

I deliver, some calmness.
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Both me and Pidge went our separate way. By this time, it was probably about 3 o'clock in the morning by the time I walk back in the house. Everything is quite and dark, but there is a lingering feeling in the air.

Kosmo was sitting next to the front door, his head purching up once he hears my footsteps. We both head up to my room and the first thing I do is get those horrible shoes off.

Feeling too mentally tired to even think about take a shower, I scrub and eyeliner or remaining makeup off my face with warm water. I take off the pants and shirt I was wearing putting on an oversized red one and just boxers.

Before I can lay down, although Kosmo has taken the pleasure of already doing so, there is a knock on the door and a voice following after. "Keith? Can I come in?" Adam ask in a tired and worn voice. I give him a tired "sure" in response.

He comes in and I can tell from the look on his face that he has been crying. Or maybe it's the red, tearstained cheeks that gave it away.

Of course them two have been fighting while I was gone, again.

"How was the dance? Your back really late." He questions in a more curious than scolding tone. I look at him for a second, debating if I should answer or ask him some questions.

"It was great. Found out that the guy I love girlfriend's not only a whole, but is also cheating on him." Wait, where did the word love come from? I never said I loved him.

Adam let's out a sad laugh at that, very much getting the sarcasm. He walks over to my bed, sitting in it and looking down then back at me, telling me to come sit down. So I do so, as he runs his fingers through Kosmo's fur.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He ask, ruffling with the hair on my head. In response, I just lay my head on his shoulder. "No, not really. What about you?"

With that, he lets out a sigh, wiping his face like there was still tears remaining on it. "Well, we were talking. Then something comes up and there is yelling. There is the topic of family brought up, and he bares his teeth, probably about to us his voice. I guess his temper got away from him, but he never actually uses it luckly."

Adam just runs his hands through my hair, but I can't tell if he is trying to calm himself or both of us. "We decided to head to bed after that, not wanting to cause anymore harm. He somehow went to sleep, maybe he just needs it. I couldn't sleep though." Adam stops for a second, wiping his face. "I love him, so much, but I don't know what is going on between us."

I look up at Adam, not really knowing what I was expecting. He just looks tired and sad.

He adjust his glasses and rubs his eyes, pretty much trying to rub all the sleep and thoughts away.

"Okay, enough of that. Go to sleep, kid, I don't need Shiro complaining about you coming in as late as it already was." Adam climbs off the bed, giving my head a pat before headong towards the door. Before he fully shut the door, he stop and turns around to me.

"And Keith, I know it sucks right now, but don't give up on love quite yet. It's all worth it in the end, but you just have to be patient. There are so many different things it can bring with it."

Then he walks out the door again. I judt look down at my lap, not really knowing what to think. Why would someone who is so afflicted with his own marriage, try and give advice about love to someone who doesn't even know what love feels like?

I look at the time and it reads 4:03am.

Before I can really and lay down, my phone rings. Who the hell is calling me this late? Early?

I look down at the device anyways, my heart fluttering a little at the name it reads. "Hello?" I greet, not knowing who could come from this. "Thank God, you and Pidge just disappeared on us. I've been calling all night." Lance responds, his voice sounding tired.

"Okay, but why are you calling at four in the morning?" I ask, honestly confused. It's silent for a slipt second, but the silence is quickly broken. "I just couldn't sleep. I needed to make sure you guys were home safe. I'm not a complete asshole." Lance answers, there being some shifting on his side and it stops.

I whisper a small "oh" under my breath. And we sit there for a little while, there not really being anything being said. The only spund really being the rhythm of Lances breathing softly transmitting through the phone. The sound is something I could fall asleep to.

With that thought, I feel my face heat up, and I cover my face. I feel like a middle school girl having her first crush. I guess that pretty much is what I am, just older and more traumatized. And a lot more gay.

"Keith, are you okay? Like actually?" Lance ask, his voice quite and relatively soft. I feel my head purch up at that, looking up into nothing but the darkness, honestly having to think about what to say.

"Keith?" He questions again, probably wondering if I fell asleep. "Yeah, sorry, I'm fine, why?" I answer, believing it myself for a second, but if it all was, then why am I having to keep something important from him.

The was another second of shifting, I'm guessing it was him sitting up. "Oh, I guess I just wanted to know. You seemed to be happier here lately and then today you just left." There is a weight behind what he says, his tone in voice slightly different than it was before.

I just give a small nod in response, but I remember that he can't see me. "Yeah, I guess so." I think for a second, wondering if I should push it further.

"Hey, Lance?" I reach, after waiting a little. "Yeah?" He answers, sleep weighing down his responce. "Nevermind." I glare down at my lap, angry with myself for not just telling him the truth.

But then I remember something. "Actually, do you remember that party Pidge forced me to go to?" He is silent for a second. Then a quite "yeah" comes through the phone.

"Do you... remember us talking that night?" I question, feeling more nervous after remembering what came after that. "Yeah."

"Keith, you do know I'm sorry about all of that, right? I wish we were all young again. This seemed so much easier before dynamics came into play. It was just each other, that's all we needed. Now I have to play as some strong alpha while everyone treats you as some small omega." Lance talks, his voice varying in different emotions, sometimes sounding sad or tired, while others he sounds angry.

"Sorry, I think sleep is getting to me." He apologizes with a sigh. "No, it's okay. I miss all of that too. We're all growing up." I try and tell jim, feeling a smile on my face knowing that he opened up to me a little. It doesn't seem like that big of a deal, but considering how often he has to act tough for others, I find it admirable that he's willing to do so around me.

"Hey Keith, do you still... feel like ending it all?" Lance ask, stopping for a second to think of his wording. I feel my eyes widen st the question, a small laugh leaving my mouth. "I don't think those thoughts will ever just leave me at once, but everything has seemed okay for once." I let a small smile crawl onto my face, staying as I let the word escape my mouth.

"Funny thing is, I haven't even let myself cut over the past few weeks. Nothings perfect, but for once, my conscience isn't starring over my shoulder for once." I explain to him, completely forgetting about anything that bothered me before.

"So you feel okay?" He ask genuine curiosity in his voice. "Yeah, I guess I feel okay."

It's silent for a second, before the soune of Lance shooting up is heard. "Oh shit, I got to go before Mamá gets up and whoops my ass for staying up all night. Goodnight Keith." Lance answers, rush being in his voice as he whisper yells. Even though, he still waits for my response. "Goodnight Lance." I respond with a laugh and he sits there for a slipt second before hanging up.

I let out a laugh, before looking at the time. Oh shit, he was not kidding. It's already almost 6am.

I shift go lay down, hoping that maybe sleep would over come me quickly, but the smile on my face won't leave, preventing so from happening.

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Merry late Christmas :).

Fair warning, this is going to be the last time your going to Adam and Keith happy together for a while. And there's Lance. Oof.