[ haikyuu one shots || fan fics ]

the stars in our eyes. || bokuto kotaro

[ bokuto kotaro x akaashi keiji ] || angst 

 the star tear disease is an illness that is born from subjects of unrequited love in which the patient starts to cry colored tears that are similar to stars. as the tears of the victim lands, there is often a shatter-like sound that can be heard.

the disease affects the victim's eyes. the person's vision will deteriorate and, in rare cases, might lose his/her/their sight. it's not deadly, but it cannot be cured. although the damages have already been done, it is said that the illness would disappear if the victim has their feelings returned romantically.

the twinkling stars pricked at the corner of my eyes until they rolled down my cheeks, leaving tiny scraps on my skin. the cascading tears slowly fell to the ground one by one until there was a small puddle of broken glass at my feet. the warmth of the setting sun reflected off of each piece, casting little shards of light around me as i stood against the building's wall. i couldn't find it in myself to hate the stars that fell from my eyes, because they reminded me of what i saw when i looked into his eyes.

the moment i knew my feelings for him became romantic was when these tiny stars cascaded down my face, twinkling as they fell. with each sparkle that escaped, my vision worsened as my feelings for him deepened. at first they twinkled in all sorts of wonderful colors, but now all i could see were the sparkles as light reflected off of them. starting with the color blue, the colors were stripped from me one by one. blue was a color that i found comforting, but it was also the color of those eyes that captivated bokuto's attention.

"y/n."

with widened eyes, i looked up from the pieces to see akaashi walking up to me. i turned away to frantically wiped away the tears that slowly tore at my vision. "akaashi! what're you doing here? shouldn't you be watching bokuto's game?"

"well, yes... but you ran off so suddenly, i got worried," akaashi responded as he looked down at me worriedly. "have you been crying...? did you drop something?" he asked, looking at the shards of glasses at my feet. "i can go buy..."

a troubled smile touched my lips as i looked back up at him. at one point i was able to recognize the color of his blue eyes, but all i could see now was gray looking back at me. those were the eyes that made bokuto's shine like twinkling stars. "you don't have to worry about me, i'll be okay. you know me," i said as i slipped on the glasses that helped my worsening vision. "let's head back before bokuto realizes we're both not watching his game."

"if you say so..." he reluctantly agreed and we both headed inside. once we stepped foot inside, the cheers and shouts vibrated around the stadium until they reached my ears. the game was almost over so i stood near the court with akaashi. those golden owl-like eyes found mine once he noticed us and he flashed akaashi and me his winning smile. deep in my heart, i knew one day my sight would disappear so if i had a choice, i wanted to see bokuto win one last time. my eyes followed each of bokuto's movements, enchanted by his agility. he was in his element. as he scored the winning point, i watched as he embraced his teammates before running towards us.

"did you see that akaashi?!" bokuto shouted as he came up to us.

there was a soft smile on akaashi's face as he replied, "yes i did, bokuto-san."

i blinked back the tears as i watched bokuto engulf him in a bear hug, pressing his lips against his. i couldn't help the stray tears that started to stream down my face as i watched them exchange a loving moment. even though my chest clenched with jealousy, i couldn't help but feel happy that they found love in each other. each time i tried to blink back the tears, i noticed my vision fading. i kept quiet though, silently praying that akaashi will continue to give the love i wish i could give to bokuto wholeheartedly. as the last of my vision dissipated, i was happy with the fact that the last thing i would see was bokuto's smile and his eyes shining like stars as he stared down at akaashi with love.

[ originally posted: november 15, 2020 ]