[ haikyuu one shots || fan fics ]

suspicion 2. || sakusa kiiyoomi

[ sakusa kiyoomi x reader ] || suspense

"chloroform- what do you think of the smell?"

that was the first thing you heard as you groggily woke up. you don't even remember falling asleep, causing you to panic when you found yourself tied to a bed. you looked around frantically as you struggled against your restraints, realizing that you were still in the apartment. aside from the light of the bathroom, the only light that helped your eyes focus came from the moonlight shining through the window.

"I mean..." you heard sakusa's voice trail off. "it's not my drug of choice. it has chemical notes, of course... but it's almost sweet. pleasant, really. it was something you suggested." he explained, leaving you confused. what is he talking about? you thought to yourself.

you stare intently at the bathroom door, waiting in fear as you fought back the fogginess clouding your mind. slowly, you start to recall what happened after seeing the news. you pulled away from him and started to run towards the door, but he was faster than you were and caught your arm as he covered your mouth and nose. the next thing you knew, you were inhaling something... sweet.

"olfactory memories are very persistent, you know? a familiar smell can conjure a connected experience like nothing else," he finished, stepping out of the bathroom. he ran a hand through his silk jet black hair as his dark eyes found you. your breath caught itself in your throat as the sight of him was dangerously... sexy. his fair, exposed chest glistened against the moonlight as if he just got out of the shower.

you turned your gaze away from him as you try to twist your wrists against the rope again. "what's the point in asking me if I ever smelled it then? you obviously used it on me." you replied hostilely. you ignored the stinging pain that coursed up your arms as you heard his strides approach you then stop at the bedside. the mattress dipped slightly as he knelt on it, leaning over you.

"my point being..." he started, slipping his finger under your chin to bring your face back to him. "is I was hoping you would remember by now," he said calmly, staring down at you. fear coursed through your veins as you stared back up at him, your eyes wavering. his dark eyes searched your face as if the answers would magically appear. "unfortunately, it seems like you need more of a push."

your voice is strained to keep it from shaking from fear as you lie to him. "what're you talking about? I remember." you tried to calm your voice down, but it trembled. you didn't know what he would do to you after what you just found out.

his voice dropped as he uttered your name, trailing off in a husky half-whisper... though your heart was beating so fast, you could hardly hear it. "you know it's never good to lie to me, darling." you watched as he reached over and then something silver gleamed against the cool light of the moon.

your eyes widen as something sharp caressed your cheek, stinging. "s-sakusa!!" you pleaded with him, screaming as you turned your head away from him again. you started to panic again, struggling against the ropes and your breath quickens. blood trickled down from the cut. "LET ME GO, SAKUSA!! p-please, i'll do anything!!"

"calm down, y/n love. studies show that anticipation heightens pain." he cooed to you, yet his voice devoid of any emotion. the sight of his expressionless face scared you more. your heartbeat was beating so loud, it almost drowned out the words that came spilled out of his lips. the ropes tightened more around your limbs as you continue to struggle against them. your voice was caught in your throat as fear overcame your whole body, voiceless sobs were what your body could produce at the moment. he continued to speak calmly as if this was completely normal to him, "the more you feel fear, the more adrenaline will rush through your veins. you'll bleed out more, y/n." 

you froze in fear, your eyes locked on his. "d-don't... sakusa please," you pleaded with him more, tears streaming down your face as you dig your nails into your palms. "l-let me go!!"

"you know on average, it takes three stabs at a four inch depth to kill someone?" he stated, ignoring my useless pleases. his other hand slid up your thigh, causing you to jerk your leg away from him. he forcefully pulled your leg back to him as your cries grew louder. you watched with tears blurring your vision as he raised his arm up in the air, the silver of the knife caught the moonlight again. you screamed, tearing at your throat, as his arm dove down towards you.

you closed your eyes tightly, waiting for the impact. a familiar scent filled your senses, engulfing you in a sense of serenity. all memories of him, of the taste of metallic as it touched your tongue, of how steel excited you as it pressed against your skin, came flooding back to you. fluttering your eyes open, your gaze met his waiting one. tears stopped streaming down your face and you relaxed against the rope.

"we can't keep doing this, y/n darling," he sighed out.

[ originally posted: september 9, 2020 ]