When the heart betrays

What if?

What if I told you
I wanted to die
That I'm tired of living
Of being alive?

What if I said
It gets worse at night?
The thoughts get louder
And nothing is right

What if I lied
And said that everything was all right?
No, I'm not crying
I swear I'm alright

What if I died?
Would you even cry?
Would you even care
If I took my own life?