Persuasive

fifty-one

1 later year
December 31, 1943

My Diary

Today is your birthday Tom Riddle, and I can't believe you're turning 17. See, I would owl you and tell you happy birthday but I've learned to move on from you. Slowly but surely.
The last time i've ever seen you was around christmas time last year, when you walked in on me kissing Theo.

Speaking of Theo, i've gotten pretty close to him over the past year. Although, we're strictly friends.

Theo and I never really talked about what happened that night when we kissed, we just kinda brushed it off and pretended like it never happened. It's all kind of a blur to me anyways because of how high I was.

I've gotten extremely close to Belle, and so has Draco. We're all sort of in this friend group which is nice because i've never actually had decent friends.

They're wonderful and make me laugh, but not as hard as you do. I miss the way my stomach clenched and I would grasp onto it when you made me laugh uncontrollably in class. I miss your sweatshirt that fell right at my mid thigh. I miss your hugs from the back, and your cheesy ways of making me feel special.

Like putting rose petals throughout your room and kissing me at the astronomy tower.

God, I miss you. So much.

It's kind of like you never left, because the necklace reminds me of you and makes me feel like you're still here at Hogwarts.

Where did you go? Why did you leave me again?

I don't want to go through all of this again, where I spend my days wondering where you are and crying myself to sleep because of it. I just want to see you, hold you, kiss you.

I've told Belle and Draco that I've moved on from you but the truth is I only want myself to think that. I know I haven't moved on from you, I don't know if I ever will.

I don't even know why i'm writing this, as if you'll see it. I know you won't, but I just need to get all of it out there. Even if it's in this silly journal.

So if you are out there, Tom Marvolo Riddle, please send me a sign.

Come back.

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June 15th, 1944

Theo, Belle, Draco, and I were all sauntering through the empty quidditch field after class as the scorching sun simmered down on us. Over the year, the quidditch field was sort of our spot. We would come here and watch the sunset together, drink, smoke, eat, you name it.

"I can't believe it's the end of our 5th year already, almost feels like it hasn't even begun." Theo voiced as he grabbed a chip from me and munched on it.

"Yeah and I can't believe Avalon still hasn't gotten any dick this year." Belle chuckled as she wrapped her arm around me.
I chuckled with her and kept my head low as I kicked through the dirt.

"Why is it you've been so quiet today Avalon?" Theo questioned as he swooped in front of me and bent a little to see me eye-to-eye.

"I'm just thinking." I smirked as I raised my head up and put on a fake smile.

"Thinking about how you're actually going to move on from Tom bitchass Riddle and finally get a boyfriend?" Belle raised her eyebrows at me and took a sip of her soda.

"I did move on, really. I'm just not ready for any relationships." I chuckled in a low voice.

"You guys are so fucking boring, this is our last week here and we're talking about Tom Riddle?" Draco snarled as he wrapped his arm around Belle's shoulders.