Pretentious
I have learned to be strong. I have learned to be courageous enough. I have learned not to cry, at least. I chose to fight for something I believe was right. No matter of the consequences had been. No matter who had been hurt due to my actions. Even it was wrong.
At least I believe. At least I fought for it.
I found myself kneeling unconsciously behind these metal bars, grasping it tediously with my tired, cruel, bloody hands. Indistinct mocking voices from outside were all towards me, but the echoing demonic laughter of my conscience was much louder. I put my hands on my ears, but it keeps bugging me as if it will never stop until I didn’t lose my sanity. I saw their eyes full of anger and hungry for vengeance, all staring at me. I knew they want to kill me too, just for me to pay what I have done. But I just ignored it, except those pair of eyes blazing with overflowing rage unto me.
Suddenly, they carelessly pulled of the bars, caused me to fall off the floor. I almost yell of pain, but I keep it quietly. Strong arms grasped my hair just to pull off me from the ground and forced me to stand up. As I looked up, I saw Martina before me. Then she suddenly slapped my face with her numb palm.
“How dare you! How could you do these? How could you kill Diego? I trusted you…I thought you’re my best friend…” she intensely pointed her finger into my face. “But now you proved me wrong.”
“I did that because I love you! That’s the only way I know for you to be mine…” I uttered clearly enough even my voice began to shake tremendously. I just want to show her that I’m strong to stand of my decision.
“You’re crazy!” she screamed to me. “I will never love someone like you. You’ll pay for this. You can’t run away from your sin, Jeffrey.”
“Before you leave, I just want you to know that I didn’t regret what I’ve done. Because in all the wrong choices I’ve done, you’re the only one I made right. Even if you don’t listen…even if you don’t hear my voice…Even if you didn’t understand…I just want you to know that I love you.”
She suddenly stopped. I assumed she will looked back, but she did not. Until she lost to my sight. And I know that will be forever. But I don’t care. At least, I’ve released all the heartaches kept on my heart. Now, I didn’t need to be pretentious that I’m strong. Now, I’m free to cry.
A/N: Liriko 2 Battles Epic Fail Entry XD
