I'll be strong. I need to be strong for my babies. Nothing else matters right.
I can't have it happen again. I won't let my baby die this time.
Flashback
I was sick again this morning i just dont know whats wrong with me. I dont want to but im going to have to talk to them.
I slowly creep down stairs to the living room where they sat watching a football match.
Once I came into view my mother glared at me. "Thought I told you to stay in your room" she spat.
"You did but" i started.
"No buts get that fat ass of yours back to your room and dont come out ever" she scremed.
You see he's the reason she's like this.
"Oh hunni dont be like that. Hanna come here" he asked with a creepy smile on his lips.
My mother stared at me. I knew i couldnt denie his orders. Anything he dose is worst than what my mother will do.
Once infront of him he pulled me onto his lap.
"Now sweetheart tell daddy whats wrong"
Hes not my dad and he never will be, hes just a guy my mum is dating. She knows what goes on but ingores it. I hate both of them.
"Ive been sick again, i think there's something wrong with me" i tell them worried.
My mum stood sending death glares at me before she turned to him "if she's pregnant ill kill it myself" she promised.
With that she walked out the room. Little did i know that she would keep that promise.
End of flashback
The tears came down harder, Adams shirt completely drenched but he didnt seem to care. He just helt me tight and rubbed his hand up and down on my back.
"Everything will be okay" Adam says trying to comfort me but it dosent work.
He dosent know that I've losted a baby before and there's no way im telling him.
Thinking about losing my baby is heartbreaking. No child should go before their mother. I should of been more careful, its all my fault.
Just then Jason comes in holding a baby.
"Do you want to see our daughter, i think she's hungry. I can always bottle feed her if you do want to" he mumbles.
Drying my eyes. I nod. I need to be strong. Adam places me back onto the bed carefully. Once comfortable I hold my arms out.
Jason comes over and hands her to me. She's so beautiful, she looks just like her daddy. This made me smile only for a second. I then moved her so she could lactch on. She started stuckling right away she must of been hungry.
Once she was done I gave her back to Jason. I couldnt be with her anymore it hurt to much. Its my fault she may lose her brother.
Jason's question had me crying again, i roll over and pull the cover over my head. Adam answers for me.
"What do you want to call her" Jason questions.
"Her name is Rosie and his name is Zane" Adam said.
"What about middle names and will they have my name or yours" Jason asks.
"Dude" was all Adam said to get Jason to leave.
I think he got the idea that I didnt wanna talk about this. Our boy may die yet hes acting like he dosent care.
"Hannah" Adam said above a whisper.
"Go away" i answer.
"If you need me just shout i won't go far" he told me before leaving the room.
Adam knows when i get like this I need time to myself. I havent felt like this in years. I felt useless, I couldnt stop crying.
Tears finally stopped falling but i felt like death. I felt numb. I felt like i was here but I wasnt. My eyes slowly shut as sleep took over me.
Nightmare / memories
I lay in bed waiting. Its getting to that time again. The door creaked open as he made his way into my room. Coming closer and closer untill he reached my bed. Yanking the cover off me he chucked it to the floor before climbing ontop of me.
Every night he comes. Every night its the same. Every night I have a out of body experience. I cant escape God knows I've tried.
As im lying there his cold hands trail down my body. I lay there stiff as if i was dead but I suppose I am dead inside. My body there yet my mind escaping. As I watch the sence infront of me it slowly fades into comple darkness.
"You bitch" i hear someone say.
"Please its not my fault" I hear myself.
The sense infront of me now. My mother towers over my small body, only 13 when I losted my baby.
"You dirty whore" she slapped me so hard the you could hear the echo around the room.
Grabbing my hair she pulled me towards the basement door. She smirks as she opens the door.
"No please" i cry.
It wouldn't be the first time I've been pushed down these stairs but this time is different being 4 weeks pregnant.
With a shove i go tumbling down the stairs my mothers voice shouts "fucking whore".
I heard the door lock as I lay on the concrete floor. I felt cold and wet, looking at my hand i see blood where ive cut it on glass.
I would stay here for weeks. Hungry dehydrated. By the time he would can save me my baby will be gone.
End of nightmare
I wake up screming. I couldnt breath. Cold sweat drips down my body. I didnt even notice when I was picked up and placed on his lap. It wasnt untill i carmled down which was quicker than normal when i feel the sparks in my body. I feel safe, once again tears start falling. We stay like that for the rest of the night where I fell asleep in his arms like i have before.
Im woken in the middle of the night for the 3rd time by Jason bringing Rosie in to get fed. This is the only thing i can do for her.
Everytime i hold her in my arms my heart skips a beat shes perfect, but everytime she leaves i remeber her brother fighting for his life.
Its all my fault hes dieing.
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Pregnant By A Werewolf
Lobisomem-Completed- Hannah Stone is about to to have her whole world as she knows it change. A one night stand leads to pregnancy. What will she do when she leans the father is a werewolf. A troubled past. A heartbreaking tale. Is Hannah as strong as people...
