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My Dream

I'm feeling very inspirational right now so I thought I should talk about a few things. First being what I want my life to look like.

Right now, I'm dealing with a lot of bad things. I won't go into that because I feel like it's to personal for Wattpad. My life isn't bad though. I say this because they're are so many people struggling so much harder than I am. It may not seem that way at times, but it's true. And they're are so many ways that God has blessed my life. Every hard time is just a chance to grow. That's how I look at things, because that's how they are. Before my niece died, I was VERY close to The Lord and I didn't think it would change. But it did. I've always been the most religious in my family, and now- I can't even explain it. God is the reason why I still smile. After all the bad things, I still smile. An that is because of The Lord who gives me strength.

A few years from now, I want to be more healed from this. I want to be able to see the name "Izzy" and not feel like I'm dying. That's what I want. It may seem simple, but it's not. Not at all. I also want to be back at my old school. That is the place where I feel like I belong. It's perfect. Well, as near perfect as a place can be.

In four years I want to be able to say I was one of the top people in my class, was in national honors society, and participated in a lot in college. I want to be in Los Angeles film school. I also would like to live there for a while.

In eight years I want to have graduated college, and then go back for a higher degree. At this point I want my work ethic to be greater than what it is now. I've always had great work ethic, but there's always room for improvement.

In twelve years I want to have two degrees. At this point I would be considering a family because the bible says to. Do I want to have kids? No. I don't want what happened to Izzy happen to my kids. But I still will, and I won't complain. I probably will love put of Los Angeles after a while. I don't think it's a good place to raise kids.

Then, after all that, I just want to be able to say that everything is okay. Everything is okay because I have God. Everything is looking up now. I want to be healed. At that time, that's all I want.

Work wise, I want to be in the fun industry. You could tell ever since I was little that that's what I would do. But I also want a job whether it be that one or a second one where I can be the reason people smile. It's people like Tyler Oakley, Shane Dawson, Deadlox, and countless other YouTubers that I laugh daily. I could turn on their videos after an attack and laugh. Do they have super-human powers? Maybe. But I want to be that person. I want somebody to be able to say I was the reason they smiled. I know how much I appreciate having people like that in my life, so in return I'll be that person in somebody else's life. I'll always strive to be that person. Always. And you should too.

Kay thanks, byeeeeee!!