plan b || payton moormeier

part 5

three months later
payton asked me out a month and a little big ago and i'm doing great. we moved almost two months ago and we're finally getting settled in. yeah just know. me and payton are doing great. however we still don't know what happened with joey. our house is like two houses but with a door in between (if that makes sense. my cousin has one of those. basically it's two houses like two front doors and all that but there's a door in between) so we technically share houses. that parents have the smaller house and we (me payton dylan faith sophia and jackson) have the bigger house since there's more of us. we all have our own rooms but i always end up sleeping with payton. dylan has a girlfriend called cynthia (you can imagine her as cynthia parker if you want or just a random girl) and jackson and faith finally got together last week and i'm happy for them.
i feel so much more safe in this house. nothing has been said about joey or robert and kevin but we've taken a break from that. all of us. and i'm happy because it's finally gave me a chance to focus on myself.

"hey. watcha doing" payton said jumping on my bed
"watching the umbrella academy" i said
"still mad that they've took the vampire dairies off netflix?" payton asked
"mhm. very" i said

(a/n: i'm actually really mad they took tvd off. i now have nothing to watch so please give me recommendations :) thank you)

he laughed
he wrapped his hands around my waist and looked at me
"i can feel you staring" i said
"mk" he said looking at the tv
i laughed and cuddled him.

"paytonnnnnnnn" i called in pain
"you called" he said
"can you please get me some pain killers. my head is killing and i've got really bad cramps"
i said almost crying. honestly when it's my time of month i don't really feel pain. well i fell pain like two weeks before and then the first day i'm in pain but the rest i'm fine. but today was bad bad (a/n: fun fact that is actually true the full thing. even about being in agony today)
"okay. anything else" he asked
"maybe some cuddles and love from my amazing boyfriend" i said with a smile
"okay" he said laughing
he came back into my room with pain killers chocolate this dude knows me too well and gator rade.
"here you go" he said
"thank youuu but i'm missing something" i said once again smiling
he laughed and layed next to me. i snuggled into him and fell as sleep.

i woke up to a cold and empty bed. where'd he go?? i got a hoodie on and walked downstairs. he was no where in the first house so i checked the second i walked into the living room and no one was there i then walked into the kitchen and everyone was there talking and as i walked in everyone was silent.
"what's going on" i asked
"my mom was putting joeys stuff into the cupboard and she found this.." payton said handing me a diary but different from the last one
so i know someone has eventually found this and read it and passed it around. i know your probably confused especially sab. stop searching. i'll tell you
so i for a while i was working with two men called john roberts and kevin jones. i owed them money but i couldn't afford it so i hid from them. i came up with loads of excuses to find away to move. i couldn't tell anyone about what i was doing so i finally got us to move. then i met sabrina and forgot about all of it. then they came and found me and said if i don't do anything about it they'll do something back to sab. i didn't even know how they knew her. i ignored them. a few months later they said we're going to kill you or sabrina which one? i couldn't ruin sabs life like that. i could never be that selfish. plus i always knew payton liked her. what kind of brother would i be. anyways i knew what day they were going to kill what time and everything so i got everything prepared. i wrote this. the other diary. and put white bed sheets on. so mom could see the blood.
- joey
i just stared
"so technically i-it's m-my fault. h-he died for m-me" i cried
"no no no" payton said rushing to me and hugging me
"this isn't your fault bub"
"it says it all in this payton"
everyone had left to give us some privacy.
"p-payt i-it happen-happening again. i-i i cant -b-b-breathe" i said crying even more.
"shh clam down bubs" payton said wiping my tears
"i-i can't i-it's my fault"
"it's not princess"
he looked me in the eye and kissed me. i kissed him back.
i calmed down
"thank you" i said
"it's okay princess just go upstairs get some rest and i'll be there soon" he said kissing me on the forehead.
deep inside i still feel like it's my fault but i'm not going to show it

*skip back a few months for the funeral*
today is joeys funeral day and i wasn't feeling the best.
i wore this

with some classic black heels
mom drove us there and i was nervous. shaking the whole way there. jackson did try to comfort me but i just gave him an unsure smile. we got there and i was so nervous. i saw payton standing there i walked to him and hugged him.
"hey. how are you" he asked kissing my head
"well i'm terrified and very nervous.. you?"
"the same" he said biting his lip.
i saw the coffin and i could feel the tears coming. i hadn't seen it yet. i was welcoming guests with payton.
once we had finished it was time to sit.
it was time for the speeches
(a/n i'm muslim so our funerals are very different so i'm kinda just making this up)
first was joeys mom and dad
payton
dylan
faith
joeys grandma and grandad
cousins
and then me
i was so nervous but i stood up and walked over. i looked over to the coffin and as i did so i felt a strange feeling pass through my body. but i ignored it and started speaking.
"joey was loved by so many. too many to even count. for me. and for others. this was a difficult loss. i was extremely close to joey and i loved him so much. joey was a huge part of my life. joey was my best friend. we were so close. so close that i planned to marry that kid one day knowing he would never break my heart. but this is the most heart breaking thing i will ever experience. he was so selfless. he's give the world to someone if he could. he would never hurt someone intentionally. and that's one of the reasons why he was my best friend and i loved him for that" i hadn't started crying yet. i smiled and sat back down and took a breath of relief.
"that was cute" payton said
i looked at him and smiled.
*skip to the end of the funeral*
now me and payton were saying bye to guests. honestly i felt like crying the whole way through but i kept it in me. payton on the other hand was practically sobbing.