plan b || payton moormeier

part 9

play this song when it says :)

i woke up to paytons messages

babyyy<3

good morning bubba
how was your night
i miss you and love you bub

i texted him back and laughed.
i got up and brushed my teeth. i ordered breakfast and we watched tv for a bit

*skip to when your home*

"we're home!" i shouted
i heard payton running down the stairs
he picked me up and span my around
"ugh you leaving me with them was torture!" he said.
i laughed and kissed him
i went upstairs and started unpacking.
being back was boring. no offence.

*skip 3 months*
so a lot has happened. i found out luke is my brother. long story. and we don't live together anymore... the house is still ours and most things are still there. stuff just became too much and we went back home. i'm still with payton faith is still with jackson however dylan has a girlfriend and she's my best friend :).

*skip 2 months*
omg omg omg
fuck
i caught payton cheating on me. i cant. i love him. and thought he loved me but apparently not. how long has it been going on for. i've got to talk to him.

i knocked on his door. i was terrified.
"hey sab"
"dylan hey!" i said i hugged him.
"i have to talk to you" i said to him
we sat on the sofa and i told him everything.
"omg i'm so sorry sab"
"it's fine. i've just got to talk to him."
"he isn't home but you can go and i'll text you when he comes"
"thank you so much"
and i left

debating. debating whether breaking up with payton is a good idea. he's like the highlight of my day. i just need space. space. s  p  a  c  e.
after all. he cheated

*phone chimes*

please don't be dylan please don't be dylan please don't be dylan
i thought before picking up my phone
great. it's dylan
"ughhh"
you've got to do it sabrina! do it!

"hey" i said
"hey. you wanted to talk" payton said
"yeah. let's go to my room"
dreading this.
i thought while walking upstairs
i tried saying something but i couldn't. i just cried
"bubs what going on" he said
"how long?" i said
"what?" he said
"how long have you been meeting her"
"sab. i'm sorry bubba"
"so it's true. i wasn't just seeing things" which was what i was telling myself
"bubs please i'm sorry. i love you"
"i love you too but you've gone behind my back. you fell for me first and then cheated on me. and i can't do that"
"so your breaking up with me?"
"obviously. i can't date you. not for a while anyways"
"i'm sorry"
and he left. i later on my bed and cried

*few days later*
i finally decided to get out of bed and put some effort in. ish. i got a fresh pair of pastel purple joggers and a white tube top. i got out of my sweat hoodie and joggers and put them in my laundry basket and jumped in the shower. i washed my body and hair and then got dressed i left my hair to air dry since i didn't was to straighten it or use any heat. i put oil on it and did some light make up:
concealer
highlight
mascara
blush
lip gloss
basic
after finishing my makeup i looked in the mirror and thought cute to my self
i walked back into my room
woah. i was bad bad
time to clean my room
i cleaned it. surprisingly fast. then i took my laundry down and did it. and then it was the hard part. paytons stuff. since i still had hope for us i didn't want to give anything back or, like a toxic ex girlfriend would do, burn or bin his stuff so i put them into boxes and put them in the closet.
can't be that bad right? wrong
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my first hoodie i stole
the first hoodie he gave me
his necklaces
his hoodie i never wore because the smell would go. he smells gorgeous
ugh. i don't want to cry again.
after finally packing everything away i put it into the closet and locked it. i turned around and i saw the picture wall. full of pictures of us. and the two frames. i can't do it. he deserves so much better. i took them down and yet again all the memories came back. although i was sobbing i still carried on.
after finishing i look at myself i the mirror
gross
i freshened up and re did my make up
i'm going to go out and get some fresh air
i got my air force on and walked to the park. on the way there i saw dylan i smiled. weakly.
"he's hurting as much as you are." he said
"did i make a mistake?"
"go see him. let him know your still friends"
"thank you dylan" i hugged him and walked to paytons house
i texted faith to let me in.
i talked to her for a bit and went upstairs.
i knocked on paytons door
"faith go away"
i walked in
"hi"
"oh sorry" he said sitting up
"payton. please. i'm sorry. just let me have a few months to myself and i'll think about us. i still have hope"
"but i cheated. i messed it up" he said
"payton i love you" i kissed him
"i know" he said
"i can't be here. if i'm here any longer i'll be just as bad as you." i said crying
"bye payton"
"bye sabrina"
"also payton. please shower" we laughed then i sniffled and left
i walked home sobbing.
i got home went into the bathroom and took my makeup off i went into my room, put one of his hoodies on, jumped into bed and cried.
he was my happiness
my world
my bubba
my bub
my baby
my everything

"hey.." jackson said
"hi" i said all sniffly
"aw. princess. he really broke your heart"
"i messed up."
"you? he cheated"
" i know but i miss him so much" i said turning over to him
"is there anything i can do for you?" he asked
"all i need is cuddles"
and he cuddled me and i fell asleep