i have felt lost since you passed away.
like a ghost.
everyday i wake up waiting until the time i go back to sleep again.
i have fallen back into my bad habits.
how do i recover?
everyday it gets harder.
it is not supposed to be that way.
i am supposed to wake up a strong warrior
getting stronger every day,
stronger by the minute.
so why is that not happening?
have the books
and movies
and fiction all lied?
i am supposed to have a happy ending.
i was supposed to keep living
and make you proud.
proud of the girl you raised.
proud of the young woman i am becoming.
how am i supposed to know you're proud if i am not even proud of myself?
if i can barely go a day without crying?
i promised you the day you passed i would do good for you.
so all the time
and love
put into my childhood was not just a waste.
but now i regret making that promise.
i have never been one to lie
but i feel like a liar everyday i wake up and look
like a ghost
of the young girl i used to be.
YOU ARE READING
chaos
Poetrythis is a book about my life! my first poetry book. talks about various topics such as: life, dealing with death, sexuality, anxiety, depression, falling in and out of love, etc. writing has always been a way for me to express myself. i hope my...
