Everlasting Love

chapter 13

As I walked back into hospital, after the breather with Daniel, I feel lifted, the devil has been trying to work on me and my family, but my God, is the almighty God, and all this are possible through him, so I'm at mom room ready for anything, I walked in seen my mom sitting there with papers in her hand, I said hi mom, glad you are awake again, she looks up at me, and and says, about time you are back, I asked you to be here when I wake back up, but to see you no where to be found, I said sorry mom, I went to take a breather, I thought you sleep longer to get more recovered, I'm sorry.
She says I know poor stella that does nothing ever wrong, but look at me, and you need a breather. I said that not true everybody does something including, nobody perfect, but at least we can be saved to be with the perfect lamb, that was perfect and died for us, and yeah I did need a breather because it was tearing me apart, of seeing my mom like this, so yeah that why I needed a breather, what did you thought of why I needed a breather?
She said yeah you always say that  mom this mom that, I'm grateful for mom, my family, but you never tell the truth of how supposly I'm such a burden to you, don't let you do this, don't let you do that, how you argue with me all the time, how mean and rude you are to the family, but put on a facade of a life to love but really you think of us, as nothing.
I said really how is it I think of you as nothing, when all I do is try to please you, I help with this, I help you with that, everytime you holler for me,I'm right doing what you me to do for you, and it is true, I don't mind helping because, you help me be saved. How is is that such a bad thing, you are right because, look at what I do, I don't complain but I'm treated like an outcast always having to do for others, but treated like trash everyday. I'm just like anybody else, have responsibly and things to do like everybody else, but in your eyes I'm nothing, you better at this better at that you this, you do that, but I'm reality, you could be alone yesterday, or today , or tomorrow, I have been here, since the day you guys have been in this hospital, I have prayed day and night, I have slept on a floor, or just a waiting room chair, I have been still wearing the same clothes I have entered this hospital, I have cried, have not eating in days, but yet you letting me, you are the one that nothing in your eyes to me, but yet, I been here for you and my family because your guys are everything me, but how it is again, me that nothing, everything I have done everything I do, is always not good enough for, and frankly, you right maybe I do put on facade, about you or my family, because right what you said to me, and always what you to me, and forgive you get over it, help you more, but today, right now, you gonna see a new stella because I'm  gonna walk out this  door, go home get my stuff, and you gonna figure out yourself, because it gonna be a new year, and fresh start me, and you gonna regret what you do to me, what you say to me, because you think I can't be nothing in life, but I be way something more in life because heavenly father is my everything, and will help me, he helps myself everyday before I do. So expect for telling count my blessings, you need to count yours, because this was a near death experience, and you could have already woke the first time to nobody, but now, it could be tomorrow, a year, 10 more years, where you just might be literally dying, and you have no one, because you are the one that a facade of thinking you better than everyone but you are one that needs forgiveness everyday. So there if you still think im nothing to you  in your eyes , then maybe it's time for me to leave and you can have a life that you don't have to worry of having somebody that looks at you like nothing anymore. So bye,
Sorry for the pain I cause you, sorry you wanted to have me as part of you life.
Goodbye.

A/n
Sorry guys this was a filler chapter because family problems always happen, and it part of you lose somebody you love an a moment, and realize that they where somebody because people take this for granted everyday, and they have realize is was much better, when you do have people that matters to you, on your lowest moments
Take care to everybody, god bless
I will update another when I can.