Jason's POV:
You ever just feel like your whole world is crashing down around you. You can't seem to do anything but sit in the corner and cry until your lungs are burning and your heart is pounding it's way out of your rib-cage. That's how I feel right now. I wanted to pitch myself off a cliff. I wanted to pitch multiple people off a cliff. Starting with Luke. Every time he ran his arm down my back or swung down to my height in hopes of kissing me I felt like vomiting. No matter how many times I told him no he just wouldn't stop. I felt violated, but quite frankly, I thought it was my fault. If maybe I had spoken up for myself for once in my life I wouldn't be in this stupid predicament. I could ask someone for help, but who? My dad never cared enough to listen, I really don't want to get Thalia wrapped up in this, she's been so happy lately, Reyna and her are planning a cross-country trip soon, I don't want to ruin that for her, and Percy. Percy must be livid, and rightfully so. Imagine, you save this guys life, spend a week by his bedside waiting for him to recover and he repays you by hanging out with the guy who tried to hurt you in the first place. That's what I had done. I'd betrayed Percy, I don't know if I even want to earn his trust back, I don't want to hurt him again. The look on his face, it broke my heart. I can only imagine what it felt like to him.
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The rest of the week felt aimless. Like drifting through cold waters, waiting and searching for a ship to come save you but it never does, so you keep drifting, and drifting, until you're convinced you're to far gone, no one is ever going to save you. Thalia had noticed the change, but I pushed her away. So did Reyna and Frank but after snapping at them a few to many times they finally left me alone as well. Luke kept pushing me farther and farther and I'm scared one day I'm going to give up and something terrible will happen. For now I keep saying no and pushing away his attempts at getting in my pants. I'm scared. I'm terrified. Of Luke, of my predicament, of myself. I can't even say "myself." I'm embarrassed to look in the mirror, at the horrible creature I've become. A monster who shuts others out. A beast that's to afraid to say something, anything. "Where did Jason go?"
I'm lowkey kinda proud of this chapter...I've never wrote anything this sad but I think it's decent! Let me know what you think!
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