Christmas with Mulaney

•Breakdown•

I sat patiently waiting for John to arrive. I was dressed in plaid and had made a plate of cookies for John and my mom. Notice I didn't make dinner because I was not having her stay that long.

Text from Cathy
Cathy:
So did you get 🍆????
Me:
Maybe.....
Cathy:
YASS BITCH!! Just make sure you use protection unlike me 😒.
Me:
Oh yes we did. How's George?
Cathy:
No idea. I've been texting and calling and have gotten no answers. I'm really worried. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and we have to show the producers our finished project. If George's isn't there he might get fired.
Me:
Oh George. 😢

I hear a knock at the door.
I open the door to see Johns lovely smiling face. He was dressed very nicely. I just wanted to strip it all off.

He wrapped me in a big hug and spun me around. My legs swung in the air as we both giggled.

"Someone's happy to see me!" I say as John puts me down.

John looks down at his pants, "Shit do I have a boner?!"

I almost bust a gut laughing. "No!!"

He blushes and goes to sit on the couch.

We sat on the couch and waited and waited for my mom to show up. It was almost an hour and a half past the time she was supposed to come.

The more we waited the more I drank. When I'm nervous I drink. Whisky and eggnog are irresistible when your mom is supposed to come visit.

We had played lots of games. Jenga, Uno, Monopoly. We had just finished a round of go fish and I begun to break down.

"John.....I-I don't think my moms coming." I slurred out of my drunk mouth.

"I'm sorry Julia. Do you want me to leave?" John stands up.

"No....J-John please don't leave. I love you sooooo fucking much. And I think I'm so ugly to have you because your so perfect a-and I'm not." I fall on my knees and begin to cry.

"Julia don't say that about yourself! When I first met you, you looked like and angel bringing me back my lost dog. You were practically glowing Julia! I will not let you talk about yourself like that! I just want to kiss you every time I see you. I want to hold you until I fall asleep."

I look up with tears and makeup running down my face. "Really...?"

He wipes a tear off my cheek. "Your clearly having a ruff time right now. I think your just stressed out and-"

"AND HORRRNNYYY." I cry harder embarrassing myself.

John laughs. He scoops me up and carries me to my bed. He tucks me in like I'm a tired toddler. He helped me get undressed into my pjs.

"I'm gonna go outside to smoke real quick, and then I'll come back and snuggle you, ok?" I rubs my forehead.

"Ok baby...." I smile at him.

I lay there just kind of thinking. Thinking about how stupid I am. I finally find a guy that I like and he likes me back, and I make a drunk mess out of myself, waiting for someone who will never come.
I really thought she was gonna come.
For Christmas she always makes these homemade candy canes. There so good.
My dad would eat them all and she would yell at him. I would laugh and laugh with my sisters.
Christmas just makes me sad. Nothing goes my way.
God I sound like a kid. A stupid, stupid kid.
Tomorrow is my last day at work.
Will Marsha stop talking to me? With John stop.....loving me.
I hate thinking. I hope John gets back soon. I shouldn't be alone with my thoughts. I should never be alone with my thoughts.