Not a Dream 18+ (REVISING)

01

We're on a beach and our spot is surely the best. There is a bar near here and I can't be more grateful. I'm gonna enjoy our stay in here for a week.

"Sungjae will come on thursday." Joy said. I nodded. They need time together, Mr. And Mrs. Park has been strict lately.

We rest for awhile before we decided to have a walk. There are only few people here, everyone has their own business. Some are already enjoying themselves with the water, some are having a walk just like us, some are taking pictures and some are having a drink even though the sun is still shining. I don't know if it's just me but I hate having a drink if the sun is still up there, burning my skin.

"You've been busy with your work, you should enjoy this vacation." Joy said.

I nodded, I should.

I made myself busy cause I've been missing yoongi these days. I miss his company especially his touch, his kisses. I miss his scent, everything about him. He is my first in everything, we discovered things together and now I am craving everything I felt when i still have him by my side. I miss the warmth he offers in different ways.

While walking, someone caught my eye. Damn, he look so good.

"Joy, look." I pointed at his direction using my mouth. He is alone on that spot so I am certain that she will see the person I am seeing right now.

"Sungjae will hate me for this but he's hot." She said.

I look at him for awhile, he's a perfection. how on earth is this possible. Yeah, they're right, God is never unfair but maybe He really has His favorite.

I look away when he look on our way. "let's go." I said and lead the way. 

We came back at our cottage. I don't know if he saw me looking at him, it will be embarrassing if he happened to catch me.

"But that boy is somehow familiar." Joy said.

"You saw his looks. It's impossible to not have him all over the internet." when I said he looks good, I mean it. Never in my life I've seen someone that attracts me on the first look, not even yoongi.

"I have a question." I look at her, listening. "Have you been intimate with yoongi? Have you done 'that'? You know what I mean." I frown at her. "Come on, I am old enough for this topic."

"We did it." I answered. She's been comfortably asking questions about my past with yoongi and I am surprisingly answering them all. It doesn't hurt hearing his name anymore, but I kept on missing everything we have done together. "Why?" I asked.

"Why did you allow him? Didn't you stop him? You're not married yet." she's too innocent for this, they're too young for this.

"I don't know why are you suddenly asking questions about this topic but yes, I didn't. Because I want it too. We're always together, living together. What I felt for him was more than love. I am so sure about him. Yes, we made mistake of having it without getting married yet but I didn't regret anything. At that moment, everything felt right." I sigh. "That is why I didn't expect him to leave."

"I wonder what is his reason." She said, looking at the ceiling, thinking.

"Don't think about it. I'm gonna rest first." I said and went to sleep.

The sky is dark and it's time for night owls to have their life, i woke up. It's my time as well. 

Sun serves as a symbol of hope, symbol of a new beginning, symbol of many positive meaning and i hate it for having an association with everything that is positive.