Not a Dream 18+ (REVISING)

01

We're on a beach and our spot is surely the best. There is a bar near here and I can't be more grateful. I'm gonna enjoy our stay here for a week.

"Sean will join us here on thursday." Jane said. I nodded. They need time together, her parents has been so strict lately.

We rest for awhile before we decided to have a walk. There are only few people here and everyone has their own business. Some are already enjoying themselves with the water, some are having a walk just like us, some are taking pictures and some are having a drink even though the sun is still shining. I don't know if it's just me but I hate having a drink if the sun is still up there, burning my skin.

"You've been busy with your work, you should enjoy this vacation." Jane said.

I nodded, I should.

I made myself busy cause I've been missing Mave these days. I miss his company especially his touch, his kisses. I miss his scent, everything about him. He is my first in everything, we discovered things together and now I am craving everything I felt when I still have him by my side. I miss the warmth he offers.

While walking, someone caught my eye. Damn, he look so good.

"Jane, look." I pointed on his direction using my mouth. He is alone on that spot so I am certain that she will see the person I am seeing right now.

"Sean will hate me for this but he's hot," She said.

I look at him for awhile, he's a perfection. how on earth is this possible. Yeah, they're right, God is never unfair but maybe He really has His favorite.

I look away when he look on our way. "let's go." I said and lead the way.

We came back on our cottage. I don't know if he saw me looking at him, it will be embarrassing if he happened to catch me looking.

"But that boy is somehow familiar," Jane opened as a topic when we are already settled on the couch.

"You saw his looks. It's impossible to not have him all over the internet," I said.

When I said he looks good, I mean it. Never in my life I've seen someone that attracts me on the first look, not even Mave.

"I have a question," she said that made me look at her, "Have you been intimate with Mave? Have you done the deed? You know what I mean," She said that made me frown. "Come on, I am old enough for this topic,"

I heave a sigh,

"We did it." I answered. She's been comfortably asking questions about my past with Mave and I am surprisingly answering them all. It doesn't hurt hearing his name anymore, but I kept on missing everything we have done together. "Why?" I asked.

"Why did you allow him? Didn't you stop him? You're not married yet," She asked. She's too innocent for this, they're too young for this.

"I don't know why you are suddenly asking questions about this topic but yes, I didn't. Because I want it too. We're always together, living together. What I felt for him was more than love. I am so sure about him. Yes, we made mistake of doing it without getting married yet but I didn't regret anything. At that moment, everything felt right," I sigh. "That is why I didn't expect him to leave,"

"I wonder what is his reason," She said, looking at the ceiling, thinking.

"Don't think about it. I'm gonna rest first." I said and went to sleep.

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The sky is dark and it's time for night owls to have their life, i woke up. It's my time as well.