Broken In Love ||BakuDeku|| (hanahaki AU)

Chapter 9

I walked into my room, Deku coming in right after me, "who is it?" He demanded making me flinch slightly, "it doesn't matter..." I mumbled, "it does matter if your life is on the line!" He raised his voice making me flinched again, "it doesn't matter because there's no way they would like me back!" I yelled slightly, a tear rolling down my cheek as I sat down on my bed.

I heard him sigh as he sat down beside me, "how long? If you won't tell me who then at least tell me how long because it's obvious that you won't go get the surgery for it." He asked, I thought for a moment, "maybe a week..?" It sounded more of a question than an answer, but he nodded slowly anyway, "alright enough mopping around, you need a shower." Deku chuckled slightly, getting up from the bed he pulled me up too.

He brought me into the bathroom and started the shower, then exciting to let me shower by myself. I got undressed, getting into the shower, and stood under the water, just letting the hot water just run down my body, calming my nerves slightly. I let out a small sigh before I started washing myself off.

After my shower I walked out of the bathroom, a pair of jogging pants on, not even bothering with a shirt. I didn't see Deku around so I sighed sitting on the edge of my bed, dragging my fingers along my arms, tracing the scars, I don't even know why I'm still here, I deserve this, I wish I could've saved him.. I wish it was me not him...

I heard the door open and tensed up, bringing my arms close to my chest. "It's only me," I heard Deku say softly, I let out a small breath as I looked up to him, he was holding a play of food, wearing a pair of my jogging pants, and one of my pull-over sweaters, closing the door with his foot, before walking over to my desk so he could put the food down before walking over to me, kneeling in front of me holding out a hand, "arm." He said sternly.

I slowly held out my arms for him to see. He dragged his fingers down my arms, gliding over the scars, I winced every so often when he touched one of the newer ones. "I didn't think you wanted to eat with everyone else so I brought you some dinner." He told me, I nodded in reply getting up, going over to my desk to eat some of the food.

After I ate a couple of bites I pushed my plate away, not that hungry, I slumped into my chair slightly, crossing my arms as I got lost in my thought.

I suddenly Deku wrapping his arms around me from behind, pressing his nose to the side of my neck, "w-what are you doing..?" I stuttered quietly, blush creeping across my face as I tried to hold in a cough.

"Can't I hug you?" He asked, "why are you hugging me?" I clarified my question.

"No reason," he mumbled against my neck, I removed his arms from around my neck and stood up from the chair so I could hug him properly. "Your still as short as ever.." I said quietly with a small chuckle, resting my chin on top of his head. "Or you're just tall," he replied playfully.

I rolled my eyes playfully, still hugging him I walked us over to my bed, flopping down so he was laying on top of me. He shifted so his nose was pressed against my neck again.

"I'm not stupid you know.." he mumbled, "what do you mean..?" I questioned a little worried.

"Katsuki, red roses... I know that you know they're my favourite..." He whispered, "of course you figured it out.." I shook my head lightly. Deku went quiet, curling into my side as I heard his breathing slow down. "Never were good at staying up were you..?" I said quietly with a soft chuckle, pulling the blanket over us before falling asleep myself.

My vision cleared to the scene I knew all too well, already shaking, I turned on top of the building. Deku was on the outside of the railing at the top of the building, I tried to run over to him, I tried to scream for him not to, yell that I was sorry and that I didn't mean it, but nothing worked, I could yell and I couldn't move.

Tears rolled down my face as he turned around to face me, a content smile on his face. He leaned back and went falling off the building.

I let out a yell as I was finally able to talk and move and quickly ran to the edge of the building, trying to reach for him, but I was too late, he had already hit the ground...

I fell to my knees letting out a yell as I cried...

I woke up with a start, my breathing heavy and uneven, I quickly looked over to my side seeing Deku sleeping peacefully I sighed a bit. I calmed down laying back down on my back, Deku curling back into my side, wrapping an arm around me.

I blushed slightly but turned onto my side so now I was cuddling him close to my chest.

"Bad dream...?" Deku asked quietly, startling me a bit, "sorry," he whispered.

"Same one as always.." I mumbled back, he hugged me closely, "wanna tell me about it?"

"Not really.. it's you just you falling off the building..." I whispered, holding back my tears, his grip around me tightened, hugging me tightly he pressed his nose to my neck again, his breath tickling my neck slightly, "I'm still here.. I'm still alive..." He whispered tiredly, yawning slightly, "I'll still be here when you wake up in the morning, promise. Now get some sleep." He reassured me, I nodded, hugging him closely as I slowly drifted back off to sleep.