Nikki's p.o.v
I could feel the rush I was getting as I let the coke I just snorted make it's way into my body. "Hey Nik this is Carlee." Vince comes my way with some chick next to him. She was pretty looking, she had some tits on her. That's all I can say. "She's a huge fan." He says smirking at me. Twisted minds think a like. I looked at the girl and asked her "how are you darling? I assume you're trying to finish that bottle of Jack with me." I said pointing to a bottle sitting on the table. "I do actually. Shall we get a drink?" She says chuckling. "Y'all enjoy yourselves." Vince said before he walked away. "Now how about that drink?" I asked the chick. "So you play bass? How do you finger a girl?" She asked which caught me off guard but in all honesty I didn't find it hot or attractive that she said that instead I kind of thought it was weird. "Well to be honest I kind of just do my thing. My skills don't compare to how I finger a bass." I said pouring us our glasses. "Oooh well I want to see you work those fingers on me." The blonde girl looked at me in a seductive way. I just downed my drink. I don't know what's going on with me but I feel like I haven't been able to focus these past few weeks. My head is not all here. Of course that could be that I'm always high but I really just seem to be missing something in me. I'm not sure what it is. "Come on, I want to pleasure you." I was taken out of my thoughts. I looked at her just downing her cup. I reached for the bottle again and said "let's drink up." I didn't even acknowledge what she had said. I don't like what's happening. She's just coming on to me and clearly wants something with me. I don't know why but I think it's weird because she's not Cora. Normally I would hook up with an easy girl like this Carlee chick and there's plenty just like her. Cora is always playing hard to get and I like that, I enjoy a challenge . I got used to it. She doesn't come on to me all the time, she will when she's all about it. Although with this chick I'm not finding it all that attractive. I haven't talked to Cora properly since the day she went to go tell me that she liked me. Within the following day we had talked to Doc and Tom about our pr contract.
Flashback
"Alright look, this pr contract was a way to cover your scandals. We don't want to risk the media ruining your reputation with the red velvet hearts." Doc explains. I look over at Cora who looked like someone plotting something in their head. She looked so upset and I know why. I couldn't help but feel completely bad, I did that to her. I also can't help who I am. "Doc I think our reputation got ruined a long time ago the moment we signed with Motley Crue. It's not exactly new or a surprise that something like this scandal would be out there." She says. Both Tom and Doc looked at each other. Tom said "Let us discuss this real quick." They both stepped out of the room and left us by ourselves. I could almost feel the tension suffocate me. I decided not to choke up. "Look I'm sorry. This is not what I wanted to happen. I didn't want to hurt you." I said speaking with truth. My palms got sweaty for some reason. She turned to look at me and unlocked her arms from being crossed. "You didn't want to hurt me?! That's all you do Nikki. You can't say that's not what you wanted. If you didn't, you would know that in your heart we should-..b-be together." Cora stuttered to finish her sentence. Her eyes stared right into mine, her pupils dilated and began to get watery. Mine almost got to that point but I broke our gaze. I couldn't lock my eyes with hers for a long period of time right now, I shouldn't even have that privilege. Both Doc and Tom came back in. "Alright Cora, Nikki, before we take such drastic measures, we can't afford scandals like this to prevail over and over, we want to make sure that the bands are on the same page-.." Cora interrupts Doc. "The group does not need to make this decision for us or with us. I want off this contract and so does Nikki. I think the only 2 people that are involved in this bullshit should have the say. I'm sorry but it's not up for debate." She firmly says. I was at shock for words, she easily disbanded our contract and even conversation about this so quick and easy. It made me kind of sad, I almost spoke up and said I didn't want that to happen anymore. "Okay. You're right. We just thought you'd want to know that you both will not be getting paid for this as of now. You both were under contract to get paid for your relationship exposure daily. You can read the rest of this dismemberment contract for yourselves." Tom opens his folder and brings out a piece of paper and a pen, putting it down on the table. Both Cora and I looked at each other as if we were searching for some reassurance or even just a sign that we didn't want to go through with this. Nothing. I got a little upset because I expected, no actually I wanted her to just say No. I grabbed the pen and signed my name on the line where I was supposed to sign. She followed right after. Fuck. And just like that our relationship was over, for what we know. "Great. I'll go ahead and make copies for you guys to have. We'll be right back." Doc says exiting the room once again with Tom right behind him. "I've never seen you sign something so fast you dick." Cora said insulting me. That immediately made me scrunch my eyebrows. Now she's just getting mad because she had her chance to say something and she fucking didn't. "Are you fucking kidding me right now? You literally had a moment of hesitation, don't think I didn't see it in your eyes. Don't deny it." I said getting angrier by the second. "I felt hesitant, yes! But y-y-you just fucking signed it like nothing. You wanted this! You had no sympathy in your heart." She says as a tear rolls down her cheek. I did have sympathy, little does she know I hesitated for a second too."Fuck off honestly!" I throw at her. I didn't know what else to say, I couldn't bring myself to say I made a mistake by even thinking that her and I shouldn't be together. "I hate you." She spits out wiping the tear. My face softened at the hurtful words she said. The door swung open with our managers walking in. "Alright guys here you are. You both are set to go." Tom speaks handing us both a copy. "Perfect. I'm gonna dip. I have shit to do. We'll see you tonight." I put my sunglasses on to hide the pain in my eyes. "Later Sixx." They said. I stormed out of the room and tried to walk as fast as I could to my car. I needed to get fucked up. Now. Fuck all this. I made it out of the building, I crumbled the contract and threw it on the ground. I got to my car, as I was about to pull off I saw Cora walking out of the doors as well. She picked up the crumbled piece of paper. I wanted to just fucking get out of the car and go kiss her or something but I couldn't, not after we just did this. I drove off in speed back to the house. Once I got there I hopped right out and went speed walking into the house. "Hey man. How'd it go?" Vince spoke drinking a beer watching a game on the t.v. Like complete shit , I wanted to say. "It was aight. Nothing too hard. We just signed some papers and what not." I said taking a beer from the pack he had sitting in front of us. I didn't want to be a bitch in front of him and much less let him know I really felt something for this girl. "Well hey you know what this means? You're off the hook bro." He told me. I wish I wasn't though, I want Cora to be all about me, I want to be all about her. I downed my beer and crushed the can."Yeah man." Is all I said. Tommy and Mick came down the stairs. "Sup Dude, are you out for pussy now or what?!" Tommy obnoxiously speaks. "For sure T-bone. I'll catch you guys in a sec. I'm gonna go get my shit." I referred to my drugs , I put on a fake smile. "Hey Mick." I pat his shoulder and walk upstairs to my room. When I get in, I let out a long sigh and throw myself on my bed facing the ceiling. What the fuck am I supposed to do now? Going back to my usual routine and ways of hooking up with meaningless women doesn't sound too appealing to me. I open my mini fridge next to my bed and pull out a bottle of tequila. Day drinking right now sounds good. Fuck everything. I began to down the bottle as if it was soda. I walked over to my dresser and pulled out a sack of pure coke. Lining it up nice and straight. I may not be able to get Cora out of my mind but this will help me cope for a while.
End of flashbackI look over to my right and of course there's just a bunch of random people, important people, groupies, the girls and Cora. There's a shitload of guys all over Cora. My face starts to heat up a bit. I see one particular guy she's at the hip with. She's having a conversation with him and soon looks over at me. Carlee is talking to me but of course I'm not even paying attention to anything she's even saying. Cora smirks and puts her hand on the guy's arm and pulls him to away from the group of guys that we're trying to get her attention. She sits at a couch and continues talking to him. My blood boils to a point. "So do you want to maybe go somewhere?" Carlee brings me back to her. "Oh yeah? Where'd you have in mind?" I drank from my cup. "I don't know, maybe somewhere you can rip this dress off of me." She seductively said. I can see from the corner of my eye that Cora is now paying attention to me. "Sounds tempting." I back the girl up to the wall and put a arm on the side of her head. I didn't actually have any intentions of doing anything with this girl. I wasn't into her. I think I just want to make Cora jealous but she's clearly doing the same fucking thing because as soon as I look over at her, she lays a kiss on that dumb fuck. Okay Cora, you want to play that way, let's go. I turn back to Carlee and place my hand on her cheek and put my lips onto hers and linger it there for a few seconds. I wasn't gonna go further, frankly I didn't want to. I then saw Cora full on making out with the groupie she was with. I couldn't stay and watch this, she's going over board. Not that I didn't deserve it. I grabbed Carlee's hand and pulled her out of the room we were at and down the hall. I lead her to an exit and said "you should go home. I don't really want to fuck you. Good bye." I tell her and she gaped her mouth open. "Fuck you then asshole." She finally walks away and I close the door. I realized, I can't let Cora slip out of my life like that. I don't want her to be just another meaningless person in my life. She gave me meaning. Not being with her makes me feel off. I can't let that go. Being around her is the best feeling in the world. I like her and for a long time I thought I could never feel this way about someone. Hell I thought I'm not supposed to but I am. Seeing Cora with other guys breaks my heart. I can't let that happen and I won't. With that being said, I ran back to the room everybody was at. I pushed passed people to look for Cora. She was still apparently making out with this fuck head. I quickly grabbed the guy and pushed him away. "Fuck off bro." I said sternly. "What was that for?" I said. Cora stood up from the couch to meet me. "What? I'm just having fun with someone. Kind of like how you were having fun with that slut you were kissing or every other girl you do." She said crossing her arms. That made me smile because she was jealous, she still likes me. "Besides you don't like me. It shouldn't matter to you anyway." She says. "Look it does matter to me. I lied before when I said I didn't have feelings for you. I do! I like you so much Cora Jensen. I'm a dumb ass for not taking you serious before." I speak. And there it was, the truth. I've been holding it in trying to lie to myself that I didn't like this girl. But she drives me crazy. Of course I like her. Cora looks like she's taken by surprise but soon smiles at me. I reach down to kiss her sweet lips. I felt a huge spark go off in my body and butterflies swarm my stomach. I hadn't felt that in weeks. We haven't been talking. It feels so good to feel that again. "I want to be with you." I pulled away smiling. She grabbed my hand and said " I want to be with you too." She leaned up to kiss me again. It was so perfect, I felt as if everybody disappeared around us and it was just her and I in the room. I knew I made the right choice.
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Author's note: Hello there babes:) Well I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter. It was a long awaited update we needed. Not only because we all wanted Nikki to say what he was really feeling but because I've been busy and haven't been able to update anything. There's been so much going on in my life. But I think I'm getting back into my writing mojo 🤪 Thank you all for being supportive and patient. Please keep commenting and letting me know what y'all think. I love you guys.
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